classic arcade buttons

i. am. freezingg brrrrr my fingers are so numb i (sorta) have trouble typing. doesnt help that i'm using the same com as i did in com class last week. the one with the problematic spacebar :O


you know they have like iMacs in the artrooooooooom and all they have here is like, some reallly really lag shitzxc hp computers?!?!

tsk but (anyw) i think apple products are way overrated (like how being cool is) they just look classy and spick (which is how guys should look but come'on sometimes they are overrated too, just sometimes - for eg. tom welling and zac efron are exceptions).


yesterday evening/night was one hell of a time.
or maybe i just got like too whatever-ed/mad/pissed/frustrated/unhappy (as it might have struck you i have henceforth decided to relinquish my fermantle-wocked grasp of bombastic words so you dont have to search your dense little brains you know what forget it this is just a load of crap


bullshit


goodbye.

27 x 1000 words

sometimes there's only one thing left to say:

bully gang forever!
no other group of stupid people (yeah name calling is how we show our affection right, trik) makes me laugh so hard and uncontrollably with such good (actually, the best) clean fun :D

after training yesterday played a bit of netball (feng shui gan coolio to the max manzxc okayi back to the point) and then.... YONG HUEY CHYI MY BABY came (back to school to the netball court)! not important that she came lah actually, the point is she bought us hyungs a can of apple juice and um the plastic-thingy of ribena and i thought it was really sweet of her.
and then i had the best time of my day!!! !!! !!!
well i almost got married to my three hyungs cos they carried me by my limbs and threw me on the field and i got paralyzed so they had to take responsibility (by marrying me).
notice the word almost.
i didnt in the end cos:

1. i forgot why trik didnt want to marry me whoops
2. livia thought i was too short for her
3. i got brought away by the police (my hyungs who can multi-act loh who else) cos i was an illegal immigrant (banglah, pardon my/my hyungs' racism sigh)
4. we never got to hueychyi and my marriage cos we were laughing so much we forgot abt it when we stopped.

um then hueychyi had a concert and yes she was entertaining us. in the end i was dragged up/volunteered up to sing/dance with her and zomggg liv and trik were such awesome fans siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :D

no words can do justice to that whole time so i shall just stop here goodbye

3 + 1 = bliss
xoxo

being cool is overrated

baby why'd you look at me like that haha ;P

i'm at the computer lab now (my first com lesson of 2008) and the keyboard sucks (much). if i dont (literally) hit the spacebar with all my finger power mypostwilllooklikethatandiamnottheleastkidding so dang it

okay i got thispiece (shitzxc the dying spacebar) of freakinggg (bad) news today morning and it caused me to curse out loud so much i awed bolun and/or huakai cos i did the wtf hand thing and i said it out too
tsk i couldnt help it so forgive me for stooping to such low qwerty behaviour
like who wouldnt be upset if he/she/it knew that ms sharlene chew (fyi she was my lang arts teacher) was gonna be replaced by some faith goh person (perhaps my impression of her will change overtime but right now i'm hella upset k)
like maybe my flame for language will diminish and soon i were to be going to typed liddat.
end of the world alr :(

ahya but um we-all-know-who saved my morning cos we-all-know-who talked to me !!! !!!
and i became really eggcited and screamy and high and whatevernots i threw my face/reputation outta the window but well point is i feel happy now :DDDDDD

stupid of us (baby and i and maybe shepherds pie too).
during break the usual people were like at the netball table referencing homework when someone 'mongst us asked for the time.
lois (i think) said "ten thirty or around there." btw she was estimating cos none of us were geek enough to carry a watch (joking, people).
hueychyi and i literally jumped out of our seats/benches cos our break was supposed to end at 10.20AM we were like OMG!-ing and wtshitzxc-ing and screaming and stuff and um while running upstairs she almost fell and i was laughing and then we got smart and we asked for the time from this year1 boy who had this blue watch and hallelujah it was only like 10.10PM so yeah we rushed for nothing
in the end we even had time to stand outside the class to singggggg and sorts so yeah you get my lame point i hope

i miss momo lots i wish she would come back soon :(
anyw if you see this i hope your uncle's okayi alright he'll be fine and i'll be praying for him so have faith in trust in him who healeths, please.

you can do it :D
jiayou!
"because you live, and breathe, because you make me believe in myself when nobody else could help - because you live, my world has twice as many stars in the sky."
and i wish i could do the same for you.
i'll be.... watching!

eh i feel like i can emo for the rest of my life. W-T-arrrrrrrghhhhhhh mc mc mc mc mc mc mc (oh my miss chew is also mc)
my life is coloured by the mcs

xoxo

procastination kills

and imma die tomorrow. any last words?
oh c'mon dont be shy you can proclaim your love to me its alright :D
i know that i am no longer as important.
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EDITED @ 8.13PM
for the one millionth time i wondered why everyone was ignoring me/not replying to my messages. now i know why!
my inbox was full i got upset for nothing and really i am the person who has supposedly dao-ed them whoops hahaha okay bye
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i listened to Boys II Men's Four Seasons Of Loneliness 15 times today! its quite an emo-y love song (like a lot of their songs are but nice noneoftheless) if you really listen to the lyrics:
i know you look at me differently from what you used to, you show it.
I long for the warmth of days gone by
When you were mine
But now those days are memories in time
Life's empty without you by my side
My heart belongs to you
No matter what I try

When I get courage up to love somebody new
It always falls apart 'cause they just
Can't compare to you
Your love won't release me
I'm bound under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love as I watch four season's change

Chorus:
In comes the winter breeze
That chills the air and drifts the snow
And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe
When springtime makes its way here
Lilac blooms reminds me of the scent of your perfume
When summer burns with heat
I always get the hots for you
Go skinny dippin' in the ocean where we used to do
When autumn sheds the leaves the trees are bare
When you're not here it doesn't feel the same

Remember the nights when we closed our eyes
And vowed that you and I would be in love for all time
Anytime I think about these things is shared with you
I break down and cry 'cause I get so emotional
Until you release me I'm bound under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love as I watch four seasons change

Chorus

This loneliness Has crushed my heart
Please let me love again
'Cause I need your love to comfort me and ease my pain
Or four seasons will bring the loneliness again

shitzxc i dont feel like doing my homework already.
haha i really have no idea why that OMG! nicole aspires to blog like me someday.
and she thinks that its funny that i'm lazy. ()h miie tian ^^
is it selfish of me to still want you to love me wholeheartedly?
i feel quite sad that my angel matt is gonna be enlisted in the army/serving in camp next month.
you shouldnt and i should not want this
oh and thank god, my grandmother's feeling so much better! just yesterday she was unable to walk and that scared me quite a bit.
but the thing is, i do. i do, so much
xoxo

if ever i believe my work is done, then i'll start back at one

i didnt know brian mcknight is black till like, now. black(ie)s sing well (*hints hints* nah i'm joking)


sigh i've/we've got to conform (back) to the regular school routine (and such) in like, what, two days. these four weeks have passed in such a scuffy jiffy i didnt really make use of them to do (enough) work nor enjoy myself (enough). i wish school term would pass just as fast. isnt it weird how time sometimes feels relative?

i have like almost all my homework left undone grrrrrr
yay hueychyi's coming over (i think she'll reach soon) and tgt we're gonna chionggggg all the assignments and whatever shitzxc :D

watched both the c'div's and b'div's ENL games and went to kallang leisure park to lunch with baby lixuan ethel cynthia hoching and rachel after that.
thereafter we played at the arcade and it was the mosssst funnnnn daytona-ing with all of them! we (or maybe just cynthia and rachel and i) were squealinggg pigs (no of cos not we squeal with dignity, helloo?) and our heads dropped off after all that screaming (like of cos they did) cos the race was hellaaaa exciting i tell you.
like cyn and i were fighting for first-second placinggg and we kept overtaking each other. then rachel the *#&)!*@ had to go raammm me into the wall/sides while i was drfting (i was reallyyyy doing it k). if not for her i would have won the race !!! like seriously
ahya but rachel kept saying that it was unfair cos cyn and i both had headstarts in the very first place hahhaha

its okayi. just jiayou for monday noplease

not needed. extra. no warmth. i miss it. i miss her. i miss everything i wish the clock would turn back. given a second chance i would have done it all differently and come out of court with zero regrets, i would have made her proud of us.

off to play with my ESAIS.
xoxo

YAY BABYYYY BOUGHT ME REDBULL HOHOHO :D

black holes and revelations

um, i sucked (again) during today's court D:
like my game play and all thaaaaat arghhh.
SARAH GOH YOU'VE GOTTA BUCK UPPPPP LIKE SERIOUSLY.
(when i have the chance to) ok i know alright i know.

went to eat at kfc with livia cynthia lixuan and baby, and now i have this insane urge to run (no joke) so as to burn away those fats.
anyw it was really hilarious busing on 198 with livia and lixuan cos we were discussing the kinds of nose/mouth snoring (if you get what i mean ahya dont think you do).
i lubdub *inserts hearrrrtsss* liviaaaa lim! she's my/a really adorable egg i miss talking to her so much actually
although sometimes she's so lame i totally have to sit on her (haha liv you know what i mean).
talking to her was awesome (though it was short) i totally want a bully gang outing of some sort :D

arrrr i have like the perrrrrfect gift for kristal low yi lin and i really hope she's gonna be so happyyyy and touched and whatever-positive-emotions-she-is-capable-of-feelingggg.
i mean i'm so excited about it!
i cant wait for tomorroww to comee !!! !!! !!!

oh yay and i got my ESAI(S) X & Y & Z today :D
nothanks, evol!

oofs ENL players jiayou for tomorrow's game alright!

xoxo
... trikkkkkkk calll meee leiiiiiiii

when the music fades and all is stripped away

G i stand at the edge waiting to fall.

tsk msn is lag shitzxc walaoeh.

ENL got postponed cos of the heavy rain and so nothing (much) really happened this afternoon.
lagged a bit and crazed over we all know who a little bit too.
well at first mrs khoo (whom i think knows that we absolutely adore mc/nats players) came over to pass us a stack of posters and postcards. we became like danggg euphoric !!!
but then we found out that mc was only on three out of all twelve posters so we started fighting for them silly women
rae and i (being the more intelligent homo sapiens) walked out of the hurly-burly (money uninvolved) auction (for the mc posters) and got five mc posters from the KNC office.
they all look at us in a different light now

i walked home from choa chu kang/lot 1 and it was the longest (and most emo) walk ever (cos i was strolling freaking slowly).
the sky was literally darkening with every step i took.
and it was like going down memory lane.

oh and ENL players jiaaayouuuuu :D

evincing my feelings

its hard to breathe when we're apart, you're that sunshine in my heart

yo' sup. i've been spending the last half hour um, looting pictures of jacky from the net when i should have wisely started on my homework.

jacky (jackie) chan hur

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as in the youngest (i think) and the cutest ever (i'm sure) male cantonese actor who has ever played a leading role in any of tvb's dramas

dont stare at him okayi, its rude to stare! just try even if you cant help it

ready?

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now do you?
what a heartbreaker like zomg so cute haha

xoxo

i will pick you up when you fall

well had weights + (sucky) training (for me luh at least) with, ahem, moses chan (or moises chan as rae pronounced it) :D

after that had truckloads of fun interrogating phoebe (with trik hyung and a little of yeyun), daughter of stall no. 3 uncle (fat fat fat fat fat fat fat umbrella father as she calls it haha). well we thought she was sort of abused at home so the righteous duo we are decided to seek out the truth.
but it was anti-climax.
phoebe is talented in music (no sarcasm) and she has a fairly expensive harmonica of which she occasionally uses her nose to play (quite gross actually).

after hyung left vivo (oh we went there) i became a little emo-istic so i decided to drop by at my greatgrandparents' because visiting them always makes me feel like a little happy kid again!
and i havent seen them in a really long time!
glad i went over to drop them stuff from breadtalk i bought because i felt a whole lot better.

went home.
cried for like half an hour plus minus and i thought it was awfully amazing to be able to do so for such a long time haha (but it was very the tiring).
mosa decided to drop by and we spontaneously decided to play basketball! :D
i think he's good (i mean i knew that he was a basketballer but he sorta awed me).

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and i got tagged by faye (chow) grrrrr

100 Questions Quiz (zomg)

Instructions:
Remove 1 question from the above add in your own personal question, and bold it.
Next, list 10 people whom you would you want them to do this, at the end of the post.
Answer all the questions.

1.What's the connection between you & the last person that called you?
- connection hur, low signal/connectivity lei whoops sorry that's lame my other half

2. When do you ever turn your cell phone off?
- never unless the battery's totally flat. or when i am avoiding someone(s).

3. What happened at 10.00am today?
- training with moses chan *giggles*

4. When did you last cry?
- so sensitive worx hours ago

5. What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
- jelly

6. What do you want in your life right now?
- the opposite of ambiguity

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
- i'd very much rather walk in the rain, but then again it depends on how my hair is done up that day. like i would use an umbrella (however retro the flower and checker pattern is) if i had my fringe down because wet fringe is gross (like totally). or i wouldnt have to do either cos rainy days are the most most most awesome times to sleep.
eh wah so long seh my answer

8. What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?
- glow-in-the-dark cushion/pillow

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
- red boxers with toy car prints on it do you want any more details

10. Whats the nicest text in your inbox say?
- my text fonts are all ugly (and mind you thats not what it said)

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
- yes

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
- yes i am wearing cleo's shirt (which i have no intention of returning)

13. What was the last movie you caught?
- kungfu panda.

14. What are you proud of?
- i am as dark as a dark

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
- "Trik was w you both? Ha, thanks anyway! I love sushi."

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
- Coldplay's Yellow

17. Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
- you know...

18. What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
- walaoeh what a sensitive question! um it says "ching ching died" i'm serious thats it. trik hyung lor

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
- you mean morning hur, 2AM something

20. Are you currently happy?
- now, like now? like at 11.44pm? no

21. Who gives you best advice?
- depends on what sort of advice i need

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
- yes !!! yes !!! yes !!!

23. Who did you talk on phone last night? (is there supposed to have like a "with" and a "the" in the sentence?)
- a few people.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
- you betcha.

25. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
- trik's freaking dumb sms/trik

26. Do you wear toe socks?
- um ya my room is that cold and i feel insecure without them. no lah of cos not

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
- alfred

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- yes

29. What annoys you most in a person?
- i dont know

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
- maybe

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
- no. is cocaine like chocolate of is that cocoa ahya forget it

32. What is the colour of your room?
- one wall is deep pink and the rest is cheesecake yellow

Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
- depends, maybe i'll do it for the kick. eh but the person must not bleed while i'm at it or i'll be the one wishing i was dead

34. Do you believed in the saying "talk is cheap"?
- words can mean a great deal thought sometimes actions speak louder
i dont know lah

35. Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
- jovan

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
- jovan

37. What do you want to say to the person you have a crush on?
- um, nice weather ar today, good for kite flying and horse riding and golf-riding. oh and reading too! oh and listening to music. and playing hangman! and.. and.. and.. etc
ahya i dont know okayi?!?!

38. Do you have a life?
- no if i had you wouldnt be reading this :D

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?
- isnt it supposed to be "..ever thought someone..." okayi nehmind walaoeh what a difficult question, next!

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
- i'm song-less

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
- i dont dream (much)

42. Last time you smiled?
- mommy gave me five bucks hahah

43. Have you changed this year?
- a lot.

44. What are you listening to right now?
- Tal Bachman's Aeroplane

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
- msn

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
- closed. i mean, who walks with eyes open?!?! hur what a silly question i love bumping into rubbish bins shit does anyone realise this is only the 46th question i'm not even halfway there shitzxc you faye

47. Is there a quote you live by?
- yes !!!
it goes like this: everything will be fine in the end. if things are not going fine it simply means its not the end. but the end will come very soon :D
um thats not really a quote thingum whoops

48.Do you want someone you can't have?
- YES

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
- yes

50. What was the worst idea you've had in week?
- ten shots.

51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
- reading/msning

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
- love life, what love life?! i dont know.

53. What song describe your love life?
- love life, what love life?! i dont know.

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
- love? like? who what hur

55. Who always make you laughs?
- generally all my friends but my hyungs and cleo particular. and the quiz setter has grammar issues lah
laughs! do you laughs? or do i laughs?

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
- ditto

57. Are you blond?
- black.

58. What your middle name?
- punctuality considerate (aw i really miss cdiv 08 ms puva and perth trip)

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
- (dont know yet but) imma bball in the morning with mosa.

60. What do you think you are like?
- dont know lei.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
- ar

62.Where have you been today?
- rvhs vivo home basketball court ++

63. What game do you play often?
- mindgames (i play others! joking lah)

64. Who are you missing right now?
- :( other half

65. If you've to choose between friend & love, who will you choose?
- omg what

66. What are you doing right now?
- contemplating if i should complete this quiz.

67. Which primary school are you from?
- unity primary school, where results are secondary, unity is primary (hahah)

68. Name 3 colours that you like
- MC green! two other colours

69. What emotion you like to show?
- i dont know i hide them sometimes

70. What is life to you?
- journey

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
- blog? emo-shitzxc? tell someone (or something hahah no lah not that um anti)?

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
- kyra!

73. Who do you admire the most?
- i dont know lei i mean like, besides myself ar, hmm this is hard.
JOKING! i really dont know

74. Which month are you born in?
- april

How are you feeling right now?
- cold

76. What is the time now?
- 12.11AM

77. Where are you now?
- home

78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
- you think lei.

79. Why are you doing this test?
- because i wanted to give faye some face.

80. What do you do when you're moody?
- moody moody.

81. At which age you wish to get marry?
- um see how haha

82. Who is more important to you? Boyfriend or friends?-
big fish! small fish!

83. Do you think you have enough confident?
- CONFIDENCE IS IT?!? have lah, i mean see what i just typed. it depends

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
- other half

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
- yup

86. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
- close physical contact with zac efron (like a picture or someth although i am alr very happy with my makeshift picture of zac efron's standup cardboard and i haha)

87. What is your goal for this year?
- balance, GPA 3.0 sighhhhhhh

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
- yes, lord almighty

89. What do you love?
- who, or what?

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
- ar. hahahhahahaha

91. What feeling you hate the most?
- rejection. or insecurity choose one for me

92. you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- not as much as i think i should be but i promise to try harder

93. Do you believe in God?
- yes and my GOD is an awesome GOD

94. Who cares for you the most?
- would like to know tyvm

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- i dont know. happiness is it hahah so political. or money hahahhaaha

96. What'll you bring when you fight?
- MY BULLY GANG HYUNGS! want fight ar

97. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
- dont know. but got a lot. like poor performance in cdiv 08 and/or bad captainship

98. At a point of time in your life, have you ever felt that there was no hope in everything you did?
- YES

99. What if your stead two-timed you?
- die loh.

100. What do you want now?
- to sleep.

i forgot to personalise my own question but goodness i am shaggggggggggggggged so nights
xoxo

specially, especially for my one and only:

haha i know this is like what, freakinggg overdue (like library books) but momo, i am a busy person (actually just too busy for you haha joking luh lubdub)! you, sexy, have been the filling in my dao sa bao/dou sa bao (eeyur so gross if you come to think of it), the chilli in my mash potato and you are the sweetest ribena in my once empty water bottle (if you dont get what i am trying to say i am just telling you how you add flavour and colour to my life). you are zomg-ily crazaaayeeee and dont get me wrong, you're awesome okayi! just that you should really get a hold on yourself and learn to not stay up outside as much because your studies are droopppinggg shitzxc (ya lah your mom bribed me no)...

anyw your new smashing hairdo is cool! \m/

and because i have your interests at heart, i have decided not to post up your semi-nude pictures taken at the back alley with the gang that night (though if they decide to circulate it around the net i cant stop them)!

wait or maybe i will upload them on friendster (if i decide not to delete my account).

this i will not forget in an uber uber long time, hahahha: "OOPS I DID IT AGAIN!"

the jamsters are always there for you just as i am.

i love you momocleotineo.

go easy on the hugs hahaha kidding :D

last but not least,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAAAAYYYYYYYY !!!

seek ye first the kingdom of GOD

and his righteousness
and all these things shall be added unto you
(singing) allelu alleluia

dear father in heaven,

you are the king of kings and the lord of lords,
we bow down to glorify your name.
you are the potter, and i am the clay,
lord, mould me to be more christ-like so that whatever i do may be pleasing to your eyes.
lord, you are my shepherd and i am your sheep
steer me from the paths of evil, keep me close so that i may walk in the light of your word.
you are also the great physician who heals me on both the inside and the outside.
above all, lord, you are my father in heaven.
as i come before you now, today, fathers' day, to thank you for blessing me with a wonderful father who shelters my family, loves us and takes good care of us, i want to thank you for being my heavenly father too.
father almightly, your love is steadfast, your love never fails.
your love is so wide, so long, so high and so deep, it surpasses knowledge (ephesians 3: 18-19). thank you for watching over us from up above, for protecting us, for not giving up on us even though all of us are sinners.
thank you for sending your son, jesus christ, to be crucified on the cross so that he can be the bridge that brings us to you, his holy blood cleanses us and makes us whole.
thank you, again, lord, for being my father, and for being such an awesome one.
lord almighty i would also like to acknowledge that i am a sinner.
i have done things unpleasant in your sight and i have said words that should never have rolled out of my tongue nor thought aloud in my head.
forgive me for all these plentiful wrongdoings lord, let me not fall into temptation again. let me remember that i am your child and i should take the path of righteousness.
lord, keep me by your side so that i wont falter and do evil.
i want to glorify you lord, give me another chance like you have done previously a million times,
i ask you to forgive me again.
tonight, father, i humbly come before you with an open heart and an open mind.
lead me to your words as i flip through the bible in search of answers to my questions.
you always have a way for me even when there seems to be no way, you work in ways we cannot see, but you will make a way for me.
you know what is best for me, lord help me make the right choices as i move on, as i grow physically and spiritually.
make me strong, make me rooted in your words.
father i would also like to thank you for enabling us to congregate in ppcoc today, so that we may uplift your holy name and sing praises unto you, and also learn more about you.
every sunday i seem to get closer to you, but i seem to be ever more closer to you today.
thank you lord, for loving me.
lord thank you for keeping my daddy safe while he was in indonesia the past few days.
also, thank you for blessing me bountifully the past week, thank you for letting me see the beauty in the littlest things - the melodius singing of the birds in the air, nature and its greenery, the cool weather and such.
thank you for keeping all my loved ones safe.
as i come before you, thank you lord, especially, for sending me friends, whom like angels, pick me up when i seem to falter and give me courage to stand up and walk again.
thank you for having them come into my life so that my every day is an enjoyable one.
althought i may resent my family sometimes, thank you for them, thank you for bringing me into this family. sometimes they are my source of joy and my pillar of support.
let me learn to be more patient and kind with them, let me not be so easily frustrated with my brothers, let me appreciate them more.
father, thank you for all the small blessings you have bestowed on me today, the hearty supper just now, the fun and laughter i had in church too.
lastly, thank you for loving me.
i love you.

in jesus' most holy name i pray,
amen.
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today's fathers' day!
i feel a tad guilty, no, very guilty because i havent got any gift for my daddy and he's being so nice about it. well i did offer to pay for supper just now but he refused so its not entirely my fault that i am not the best daughter one can ever wish for (inside joke, hoho momo).

oh dangzxc its alr 12.18am and i've got training tmr (although i dont know what time it is and i sure hope its at 2.30PM).
i'm getting really huge ugly eye bags and well thank god i am as dark as a dark. yes, as dark as a dark, hahaha.

i shall go type the post i owe cleo and then go to bed.

lubdub!

TRIK I WANT TO WATCH CANTO SHOWS !!!
LIKE NOW
p.s. i didnt get to go to f_r_i_ hyung's house, awwwww :(

xoxo

yours sincerely

EDITED @ 3.39PM
horrible horrible horrible i feel like spitting out a longgg string of freaking uncivilised vulgarities at my grandaunt who is back here at my house. she used to live with us but she moved out almost a month ago. believe me, my house has been more at peace and a more joyful place to live in since then. until now.
well i shall not let her dig out the worst side of me (yelling my funny toes off with my face red with fury fists shaking with rebuff with mouth hanging from strewing vulgarities i am no longer able to contain), as i believe that it is and has always been her motto for living (what a no life-er).

it isnt like i havent tried to put up with her bias actions and behaviour.
it isnt like i havent tried to offer to lend a helping hand (although it was only when she was leaving and she needed to shift her stuff out and i was more than glad to help).
it isnt like i havent tried to give her the very least due respect because i was advised to since she is, after all, this grandaunt who watched me grow from an innocent little child with huge adoring eyes to this.. this.. this black monster.
it isnt like i never apologised.

maybe i never really tried that hard and all that so fine it is my fault everything is my fault okayi i admit that everything bad around the house happened because of me i am a jinx and i jinxed her too it is my fault.

it so is my fault if jerald is at grandmom's place and her other reason for being here (besides traumatising me and making me sound like a juvenile delinquent) is to actually pass him his stuff and talk to him and to show him his new study table she so lovingly chose out for him (actually i dont think my brother will like it but whatever).
it is also my fault when there is leftover food (mind you the bowl of noodles was covered with a plate and the table top was wiped clean already). yeah it so is my fault if my brother is so full i can see his paunch alr but he still wants to keep it for later and i can see the logic behind his decision cos he gets insanely hungry after coming back from the playground.
it is also my fault that my hell of a phone lags (i wonder why, only when the texter's my grandaunt) and she didnt get my reply one quarter of a second after she sent me that text.
it is also my fault that the house hasnt been cleaned up thoroughly, like really thoroughly for two and a half weeks cos my parental department and co-units have been staying in my grand's and we (minus my maid who is still cleaning up over there) moved back only two days ago (okay this can be argued like um, i should have cleaned the house or something when i came back but urgh looking after jovan is more than a handful already and well... i havent really done any housework before - i mean besides washing cups or plates occasionally.)
it is yeah like totally my fault that i have friends. friends who call me on the home phone (when she is talking to me).
lastly it is my fault that i lead an active love life (i dont, actually). and she found out by reading through my most private letters which i keep on my desk and anyone wise enough (like my brothers who recently gained the sense to do so) will know never to touch the things there.

anyw, i had to throw out the rubbish into this common chute (hdb chute thingy lah) and i swear never to go near it again. and again. and again.
like okay i know it stinks. and i know it can be really hard to open the lid (by stepping on the pedal) sometimes.
what i didnt know was that freaking cockroaches hide inside the chute awaiting the opportunity to jump on you (chill it didnt jump on me though).
i mustered all the courage i had left after being so severly criticized/reprimanded by my grandaunt and stepped on that pedal.
afterwhich i threw the two plastic bags of rubbish into that dang thing and suddenly one grotesque coackroach flew outta the chute and landed one nasty metre away from me.
and i screamed.
so loud my brother ran towards me to sorta check if i was still alive, you know (from the house and i was running back to the house/towards him so we bumped into each other and we both fell to the floor).

i am going to have to mop the floor later on (because she says so) and yes please pray that nothing happens to me please.

i am dignified,
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drifting logs can be pulled back together
time does no justice to the heart
initiative, yours to take if willing parties abide
you bet i will reply
i havent forgotten you who finds joy in tickling

great vision you must have then
remember to apply it on court
me too and i always do
what else, hedge hog, cheeker, horse
dont let our friendship too

alright quit laughing at me i know its one hell of a laopok poem reply (which doesnt make sense unless you put the other poem next to it and compare them line by line)
sincerity is the key in any message you are trying to put across, though :D

xoxo

but all these thoughts are leaving you tonight

EDITED @ 9.08PM
and i totally flipped/sucked during training!!! !!! !!! :(
*dies more devastatingly (hur?!)*

EDITED @ 9.01PM
i had one whole eel for lunch today!!! !!! !!! :D
*hyperventilates*

screw the photoshooting company policy!!! !!! !!! D:
*hyperventilates more*

boy am i hungry!!! !!! !!! :O
*hyperventilates even more*

grrrrrrrrr.
*and dies*

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i am blogging because sudden inspiration/encouragement from my dearest trik hyung struck me.

you say i'm a stranger, still says:
OH SHIT

you say i'm a stranger, still says:
WATER WENT UP MY NOSE!

its so says:
tsk! again?!

its so says:
i think you should amke a list of the things that go up your nose

you say i'm a stranger, still says:
okayi, fine

you say i'm a stranger, still says:
i shaaaaall do it hahahhahahhahahha

its so says:
hahahaha

its so says:
okay good

you say i'm a stranger, still says:
actually not a lot lei, only like four lah!

its so says:
maybe then you can like submit it to the world records thingy

you say i'm a stranger, still says:
hahahhahahhaa

so hahha, here's the much awaited list!
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Things which have gone up my nose:

1. Water from the swimming pool
   - way back when i was little, like six or something. but c'mon lah everyone has got this experience!
2. Spaghetti strands from Pasta Mania
   - and i tell you why it happened! trik was feeeeeding me like so much (or many strands) at a time and she reloaded my mouth so fast, it just sorta went up my nose. oh and i sneezed/blew it out (of my nose). big deal.
3. Cheese
   - this has got to do with trik too! cos me and liv were over at trik's and we were starving so we shared a slice of cheese. and then um, it just went up my nose. i blew them/it out too. and the smell didnt go away till days later it was awful.
4. Water
   - just minutes ago when i was drinking from my mug. it just did, okay?!

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oh no there's traininggg later on.
i'm hungry already ............!

xoxo

- misses .

and darling,
I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET YOU (AGAIN)!

will youuuuuuuuuuuu forgive me? :/

i believe i can fly

tsk super anti-climax manzxc.

just when my heated discussion with hueychyi on bras and all that was/is getting way cool i have to go off/out/away/between/inside/down hahaha.
i know i'm not making any/much sense but people who actually discuss bra-things are really not as sensible (um) as they should be.

but then its really very uncomfortable (hahahha if you get what i mean).

ciaaaaao :D

seems like its been forever since you've been gone, please come back home

okayi alright say hi to strawbeary, sunkiss' (number two) best friend! :D

not bad sia, i think its been ages since i came to my grandma's house cos i just realised that they do have internet access after all! thrrreeeeeeee cheeeeerrrrrrrs
but then there's only like this one freaking laggggg laptop and everyone in the house queues to use it (and somehow i'm always last in the line grr).
anyw yes i am gonna stay here (at my grand's) for six days (oh die thats like so long) because my grandmommmm went to macau and she left her dearest dog in singapore, so we've gotta take care of it.
elmo (the silver mini schnauzer) is so very pampered he/it cant sleep anywhere else but here so the whole company (parental department + co-units) has to stay over.
big-shot dog.

went over to trik's house after training and boy am i terribly sorry for sorta um, pangsehing rae yeyun lois kristal (cos i didnt go to vivo in the end)
i'm sure those magnanimous people will forgive me/trik, yes yes yes.
watched like a few episodes of this super exciting hongkong serial (if i'm not wrong its called the best ever crime-fighters or something like that loh) and livia hyung joined us!
watched and watched and watched and we shared a slice of cheese.
thaaaat cheese went up my nose! and i blew it out!
(hahahah hyung the pastamania incidentttttt) it was really gross.
i can still smell that stench of the cheese (not that i mind now).
but its so strong i think it'll stay in there for the nexttt hundred days (okay i do mind can)!
ate (very late) dinner at her place.
livia says that zac (trik's eight year old brother) likes me but i beg to differrr.
sigh i think trik's maid/househelper is terribly rude to her and my oh my our dearest hyung does not deserve to be treated that way!
walaoeh, dare to bully a bully ganggg member siaaaaa.

hahahhahhahahhaha.
the skirt incident in schoool.
i hope kristal has found the/her correct skirt! :D

i think my computer time is almost up - we have internet rationing here, tsk.
my brother the irritating is screaming in the background.
okayi this is so abrupt goodbye and goodnight.

i miss you and i will continue to the next six days :(

p.s. post dedicated to my momo will come up when i return to my yew tee home. happy waitingggggg my deaaaaaars.

you'll always be a part of me, i'm a part of you indefinitely

dont you think the shadows look like dna strands (or whatever you call them)?
i cooked her egg and she cooked mine - edible stuff fyi (@ her place)
well it was (rather) deserted and we were talking a lot so we decided to shout out how we felt.
most of it sounded like
"I MISS MISS PUVA!"
"C'DIV 08 WHERE ARE YOU!"
"C'DIV 08!"
stupid thing threw her duffel bag into the tree!
never knew hueychyi could look so cute eh!

my (ex)boyfriend number one totally dated (well sort of) me for the whole day. i got sent out of school/training (again! sigh) so she took me in and we ended up spending like ten hours (plus plus) with each other.

i stayed at her house till about 3+PM before we headed to choa chu kang. time flew (like seriously) super-duperly fast when we were watching intriguing MVs and coolio/grotty new songs and disgusting/sick/saddistic stuff (youtube) at her place. we cooked and she made me wash most of the dishes (so like home econs lessons hahaha).

wanted to play basketball at first but we both felt like sleeping when we reached the court (@ limbang park) so yayyy went to my house.
watched 27 dresses and its quite a cute movie!

my dad said she could stay over (o.o?!?!) lei.

anyway premium-grade boyfriend was freakkinggggg awesome today!
1) the fun and the laughter
2) talking
3) earpiece
4) garlic bread

yay i have awesome hyungs and an awesome boyfriend-hyung!
LUBDUB *inserts heart*

why dont you miss me :(
xoxo

wish there was something inside me, to keep you beside me

call me childish or whatever, anyhow its a tid for a tad.

and walaoeh, why doesnt anyone (none at all) get the seriousness of this!
our dearest cleo's (or in my case, my dearest momo's) birthday is in -um count the hours please i'm having a headache now-!
maybe they all dont bother because they have already got their perfect gift wrapped up, and people like joonghan will just write an enormous 'I O U' card (like i used to do before i became thoughtful).
my point here is that, i have like no ideas for herrrrr gift at all (besides one spect of dust, um alfred.....)!
momo if you're reading this dont worry i'm just trying to scare you as a matter of fact your super huge thing is now on my bedroom floor so yeah just enjoy the last day of you beinggg fifteeeeeeen....! *ahem*
i'm quite a good liar in case you havent noticed.
DIE MANZXC.

yoursuperheromonstersizedsmile! says:
hahaha lady wld u just chill?
yoursuperheromonstersizedsmile! says:
she wun slaughter u for nt giving her a present
yoursuperheromonstersizedsmile! says:
or else u will b dead by nw
yoursuperheromonstersizedsmile! says:
since whn u give her presents =.=

i have awesome friends.

and i think i'll be having vocal lessons with my angel.
bless me.

xoxo
i know i'm losing you