amsterdam

come on, my star is fading.
and i swerve out of control.

alright (miss twt style), while the whole world (by that i really mean RVians) is on a msn/blogging/gaming hiatus because its exam period, i have been posting insubstantial rants and all that on a daily basis.

procrastinate.

first two papers (lang arts and chinese papers 1) tdy. felt extremely jittery so would like to thank you all who made me calm down so so so much. would have totally hyperventilated. k not rly hahah :)
thaaaaank god i was in a writing mood. its a very very very important factor

after the paper, hueychyi and i pushed/dragged trik to queensway hahah she was rly unwilling so we had to use brute strength.
ate protein and lipids (did i get that right?)
then we went to the (relatively) huge sports shop at the highest level and trik lost her adidas water bottle thr! didnt realise till like half an hour ltr. so when we went back up, she found it among the other adidas bottles that were for sale.
she was like, "eh this is my bottle!"
btw, she was joking.
but then she opened it and realised that thr was water inside (and no price tag on it) so hohoho we brought it to the salesperson to explain and he was eyeing us so suspiciously.
walaoeh hahaha.

sometimes, its the littlest things that speak the loudest.
touched, rly touched.
you're my warrior :)
and i love you.
go mug. go figure

planets are moving at the speed of light

one and only

hey, evol.

in case you never get to see my PM on 5 october 2008, here it is:
i love you more than my heart can take.

study rly rly rly hard cos at the end of it all, its gna be worth it.
if you're mugging, i'm half mugging :)

if you ever feel down, stressed, crushed, demoralised, whatever it may be, you know who you can always turn to. you know the monkey will always be behind you, breaking your fall, saying stupid things to brighten up your day.

i might have been a terrible other half throughout this whole time, but things are gna change from now on.
trust, faith, love.

jiayou! :D

xoxo

the awful light that shines

computer lessons again!
its raining outside! and when we were in the classroom just now we/i purposely left one of the windows open so that we/i could feel the drizzle. felt so good eh :D

anyw, i am getting the hang of folding straw stars! congratulate me
i still take like five minutes for each one but just so you know, its a major improvement from yesterday. plus, its addictive. i was hardly paying attention in science (which is the ultimate boredom cos um we've got a new teacher for bio - ms lai. not that chem was any more interesting but at least mr ng speaks loudly) nor chinese (cos we were blog sharing on our chinese posts and i am contact-lensless) so i folded like plentiful of stars!
i want silver straw(s) (stars) !!!

last week tse yin told me that she'd pay attention in com class today (and i replied that if she didnt she'd owe me a drink). and walaoeh she's keeping to her words so i am dang boredzxc (to the brim now) :S

I CAN COLLECT BREAKING DAWN TODAY !!! :D
i am thus in a joyous mood and if you are persuasive enough i'll buy you half an apple from stall 5
and, can someone tell me when the book was released?
i saw some year four walking around with it and i was like zomg it cant be (unless being the loyal fan she is, she skipped sch in the morning to get the book)!
urgh but there's langarts ICAS later on so i can only leave sch at 3.30PM :(
cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait
then i'll come back to sch and make rae foo awfully jealous (that is, if she's still around).

oh we played netball for PE and it was Disastrous (notice the cap-ed D), like srsly.
it was like a game with turnovers as fast as claudia chew and everyone was just stepping and offsiding and held-balling and all that shitzxc
hahhahaa but it was really funny to play with the class!
and i was um exasperated when i was umpiring so i gave up blowing for all the minor infringements ...
yay i love 2B-pencil(s) lah random

we're now doing some flash proj thingum.
we're creating this flash document/game that can supposedly calculate your lucky number based on your name, brithday, and some other random info.
i'm not doing it cos i dont believe in luck(y numbers).

ZOMG I JUST REALISED I CANT GO COLLECT MY BREAKING DAWN AT 3.30PM COS I HAVE NAPFA (RE)TEST!
shitasszxc.
and my 2.4km + beep test is tmr, on the same dayyyyyyy walaoeh
i wish i hadnt been on mc months ago (missed first napfa cos of it)
sigh your hearts out.

and i love you,

you lift me up, only to let me down (again)

to the person who doesnt really want to know: this is your song.
you may read between the lines.
xoxo

being cool is overrated

baby why'd you look at me like that haha ;P

i'm at the computer lab now (my first com lesson of 2008) and the keyboard sucks (much). if i dont (literally) hit the spacebar with all my finger power mypostwilllooklikethatandiamnottheleastkidding so dang it

okay i got thispiece (shitzxc the dying spacebar) of freakinggg (bad) news today morning and it caused me to curse out loud so much i awed bolun and/or huakai cos i did the wtf hand thing and i said it out too
tsk i couldnt help it so forgive me for stooping to such low qwerty behaviour
like who wouldnt be upset if he/she/it knew that ms sharlene chew (fyi she was my lang arts teacher) was gonna be replaced by some faith goh person (perhaps my impression of her will change overtime but right now i'm hella upset k)
like maybe my flame for language will diminish and soon i were to be going to typed liddat.
end of the world alr :(

ahya but um we-all-know-who saved my morning cos we-all-know-who talked to me !!! !!!
and i became really eggcited and screamy and high and whatevernots i threw my face/reputation outta the window but well point is i feel happy now :DDDDDD

stupid of us (baby and i and maybe shepherds pie too).
during break the usual people were like at the netball table referencing homework when someone 'mongst us asked for the time.
lois (i think) said "ten thirty or around there." btw she was estimating cos none of us were geek enough to carry a watch (joking, people).
hueychyi and i literally jumped out of our seats/benches cos our break was supposed to end at 10.20AM we were like OMG!-ing and wtshitzxc-ing and screaming and stuff and um while running upstairs she almost fell and i was laughing and then we got smart and we asked for the time from this year1 boy who had this blue watch and hallelujah it was only like 10.10PM so yeah we rushed for nothing
in the end we even had time to stand outside the class to singggggg and sorts so yeah you get my lame point i hope

i miss momo lots i wish she would come back soon :(
anyw if you see this i hope your uncle's okayi alright he'll be fine and i'll be praying for him so have faith in trust in him who healeths, please.

you can do it :D
jiayou!
"because you live, and breathe, because you make me believe in myself when nobody else could help - because you live, my world has twice as many stars in the sky."
and i wish i could do the same for you.
i'll be.... watching!

eh i feel like i can emo for the rest of my life. W-T-arrrrrrrghhhhhhh mc mc mc mc mc mc mc (oh my miss chew is also mc)
my life is coloured by the mcs

xoxo

specially, especially for my one and only:

haha i know this is like what, freakinggg overdue (like library books) but momo, i am a busy person (actually just too busy for you haha joking luh lubdub)! you, sexy, have been the filling in my dao sa bao/dou sa bao (eeyur so gross if you come to think of it), the chilli in my mash potato and you are the sweetest ribena in my once empty water bottle (if you dont get what i am trying to say i am just telling you how you add flavour and colour to my life). you are zomg-ily crazaaayeeee and dont get me wrong, you're awesome okayi! just that you should really get a hold on yourself and learn to not stay up outside as much because your studies are droopppinggg shitzxc (ya lah your mom bribed me no)...

anyw your new smashing hairdo is cool! \m/

and because i have your interests at heart, i have decided not to post up your semi-nude pictures taken at the back alley with the gang that night (though if they decide to circulate it around the net i cant stop them)!

wait or maybe i will upload them on friendster (if i decide not to delete my account).

this i will not forget in an uber uber long time, hahahha: "OOPS I DID IT AGAIN!"

the jamsters are always there for you just as i am.

i love you momocleotineo.

go easy on the hugs hahaha kidding :D

last but not least,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAAAAYYYYYYYY !!!

- misses .

and darling,
I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET YOU (AGAIN)!

will youuuuuuuuuuuu forgive me? :/

seemingly, not what it seems

okay this is cool (like totally, haha).

i found a really old aerosmith CD and i like all their songs.

plus, on their cover the word 'aerosmith' is an ambigram!

maybe its just me because i have been listening to 80's/90's Guns N' Roses/Led Zeppelin pretty much (actually a whole darn lot) recently.

well trik's going crazyyyyy reading through all my posts. she's trying to find a very impt clue/date amongst my post(one million 's').

it obviously has got something to do with __, aint it :D

i'm neck-broke (whatever it means, it sounds cool right) and thus turned down rae's date to watch the prince caspian thing. grrr cleo and gang should be somewhere in town now, grah while i'm stuck at home trying to fix up links.

yes i do have links now - product of doomsake boredom.

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(should be pointing to links ar btw)

Christian Bautisah - The Way You Look At Me

No one ever saw me like you do

All the things that I could add up too

I never knew just what a smile was worth

But your eyes see everything without a single word

'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me

It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece

You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be

I never know what you see

But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

If I could freeze a moment in my mind

It'll be the second that you touch your lips to mine

I'd like to stop the clock, make time stands still

'Cause, baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel

'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

I don't know how or why

I feel different in your eyes

All I know is it happens every time

xoxo and darling,

i love you

elope with my other half

UPDATED @ 8.10PM

heaves a sigh of gdamn relief, i'm so so so so glad i decided against heading down to chips today.
dave (or is it daniel, whoops sorryyy lah) just texted to inform me that the cops are ID-checking there now (i know its so "hur?!?" cos the day is still so young).
good thing dawn rebecca sharque and gang are going to home club tonight.

ahya but i'm really bored at home.
i realise that i like secondhand serenade a lot.
and i crave for booze, whoops
i also want a big dose of led zeppelin.
they go awesome together when you get tipsy.

facade, or how much i decide to hide

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sorry i'm too much of a coward to tell you (all) peronally but boyfriends one, two and three, i guess this is the end.
it was nice while it lasted (although number three only like a few hours hahhaha).

so real hur.

it is.

ahya. i'm so tired.
xoxo

take my every breath away as i surrender my all to you

today's the earliest i've ever been home on a school day (though not normal) since the start of secondary school life. okayi but to let you in, my paper actually ended at nine thirty so nothing much to congratulate me about.

and, its the end of mid years!
i feel so qwerty. like very very qwerty (this word's really typing-convenient).
maybe this is what you call post-exam stress, because i dont feel like a burden has been lifted off my shoulders (although i really dont feel as trussed, thank god).
i think its the anxiety, i've got this gripping hunch that tells me i have not done well for this term's assessment.
urgh its over anyway.

now i have to concentrate on watching my truncated version of r and j (yay a million thanks to glennis for lending it to me)!
and of cos, to get some sleep. by this i mean twelve hours - to cover up for these four days of four-and-a-half-hours-sleeping-nights.

i love you more with each passing day,
ciao.

now my heart's in two and i cant find the other half

firstly, hhahhahahahahhahahahhahahahhahahahahahha. secondly, hahhahahahhahahhahahhahahahhahhahahha. thirdly, hahahahhahahhahahahhahahhahhahha.

i think hyung trik has seen all the skeletons in my closet (shhh dont tell okayi)! and yes, i dont think she ever wants to be anywhere around here again because i think jovan has a crush on her, giggles. how true that age isnt really a factor in love.
i hate to admit this but that one and a half hours was rather unproductive!
i did like four questions and she did like, two, perhaps.
oh and we let her in on our occasional sibling-karaoke-session. and wrestling. whatever, jovan's pesteringgggggggg me cos he wants to know more about her.
die trik, die manzxc (haha).
but you never know how romantic a seven year old (who has abs yo) can be.
hahahahhaha, laughs your head off.

urgh i am going to fail maths. because after reading through the textbook and all my notes i still cant apply them in my revision papers.
coordinate geometry is one shit of a chapter (or rather, three) - i still dont get it.

my house was really really dark just now (when i first got home, before i went to pick hyung up). there had been a power trip and the supply to our whole unit was cut off. so disappointing because five minutes after we reached my place the lights came on again.
you know, just when we were expecting a really romantic candle-light session. spoil the fun manzxc.

and i vandalized the mc circle! whoops

gaaaaaaaaaaaaah, screams your head off.
unfortunately, my plan backfired :(
no matter what i do i cant seem to be able to soften nor melt you maybe only the sun who is so bright and so strong and so warm is capable of doing so nosorry i am not your sun should i go away its up to you tell me what you want your wish is hereforth my command -

ciao.

now i'm jumping up and down, you're the only thing around and you mean every little thing to me

i have seriously no idea how i'll do for my physics paper because all that i have learnt was not exactly applicable in that hell of a paper.
and i dont know why i'm speaking so crudely these days.

MCFC i'm going to remove those pictures right after this post.

studying at long john's today was unproductive because i couldnt absorb a thing into my head. i have never been good at memorizing anything, but still! the information/points i remember are so vague i'll just end up writing words on my answer script (like:
13) economic boost, more people, money, social. please self-elaborate).
i dont get how the hyungs seem to be mugging/studying so intensively (and focused) when most of the stuff seemed pretty much like common sense to me.

oh yes before that trik and liv and i went on a MCFC mission - which was to find MC a mr. right. unfortunately no one at harbourfront/vivocity was dashing/charming/presentable enough to fit as a candidate(? what horrid vocab). no one seems to be perfect enough for MC lei, although it is probably good enough if he loves our dearest ______ (whoa its as if we're really good friends yo) whole-heartedly. somehow i think our expectations are higher than MC's. but does it matter? cos all we want is the best for her (so noble haha)!

darlingggggggggggggggggg, let's, ahem you know. okayi this sounds so dang wrongg.

dont vanish with time, noplease
ciao.

emotions

updated:

four rv netballers found dead in the kalamari desert (actually, the netball court).
cause of death is unknown, corpses were found sprawled on the floor.
however, a possibility would be excessive inhalation of pesticide (uh, they were spraying it yo).
sarah: are we mosquitoes? are we? are we?!
trik: yes, yes we're pests.
sarah and trik and kristal and rae: *dies*

trik: eh, are you taking? are you? (talking to kristal abt shooting statistics)
kristal: yes...
sarah: yes, yes! *uses handphone to pretend to take pictures (like my phone has a camera)*
trik: *gives a dang lame face* *starts doing ultra unglam poses* *james bond hahahhahha*
kristal: HURRY UP I WANT TO GO HOME!
trik: okay, okay, i know. i want to go home too. we all miss home very much.

and then, we cracked ourselves up by lip-syncing/singing and trying to shoot album covers (using shadows). oh and by planning to throw the soccer ball over the fence if it rolled to us, because the boys said something rather crude to us (like chio) and they didnt want to pass our ball back initially, grrrrrr.
my, it was awfully fun under the sun!

oh and well, it was so dang embarrassing today cos i, along with four other classmates (btw chairman included), had to shift my table and chair out of the classroom to complete my assignment. so i/we had to bear with all the quizical looks those people from level two (who were going about their toilet routine so the untimely) shot me/us.
and i know the parental department is very disappointed in me cos thz called them up. and dang, fish and i have gotta face mk tmr. die, die, die. last words, anybody?

yay thanks twinneh again for kite!

darling i came so close to losing you.
i never ever ever ever want to experience it again.
never.
and, (no)sorry.

ciao

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the more i try to hide them, the more i am revealing them.

thanks twinneh :)

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where shall i begin?

ta-da trainingg did not end exactly at 12.30PM (i should have expected it), hurphhhhh. so couldnt catch P.S. I LOVE YOU (sometimes there's only one thing left to say) at vivo's gv cos we were released when the show was due to start in like, fifteen minutes (horror).
so i watched it at JE (i didnt know it was shaw till today) with the (stinking) doggggggg (hahhaa). tsk, we missed the first part, as in some five minute introduction (which, i think contained all the sexual scenes yeah). it was really, not bad at all. like, yeah it pulled at the heartstrings a little (but not enough) and it was one of those movies which does not really have a climax. but, it was sad. now i am more determined (than ever) to read the novel.

then i went on the cable car (and to sentosa)! and i was not afraid. like, not at all. smilezxczxc to all cowards out there who are (currently) height-phobic. twenty nine and sixty four. things look different when you're up there. and we saw so many couples dining insideeeeee (fffffft so romantic please).

i spenttttt a lot today, but its okay, cos i did what i've been wanting to, all in a day!
and i got my third sunflowerrrrrr!
now i've gotta rack my brains and thinkkk of what other stuff i want to do/see next.
the first thing that comes to my mind is (guess?) - sleep.
yes i am dead beat and goodnight to all lost souls out there because my world is so bright tonight.
i need my moon.
sometimes there's only one thing left to say,
p.s. i love you -
ciao.