procastination kills

and imma die tomorrow. any last words?
oh c'mon dont be shy you can proclaim your love to me its alright :D
i know that i am no longer as important.
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EDITED @ 8.13PM
for the one millionth time i wondered why everyone was ignoring me/not replying to my messages. now i know why!
my inbox was full i got upset for nothing and really i am the person who has supposedly dao-ed them whoops hahaha okay bye
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i listened to Boys II Men's Four Seasons Of Loneliness 15 times today! its quite an emo-y love song (like a lot of their songs are but nice noneoftheless) if you really listen to the lyrics:
i know you look at me differently from what you used to, you show it.
I long for the warmth of days gone by
When you were mine
But now those days are memories in time
Life's empty without you by my side
My heart belongs to you
No matter what I try

When I get courage up to love somebody new
It always falls apart 'cause they just
Can't compare to you
Your love won't release me
I'm bound under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love as I watch four season's change

Chorus:
In comes the winter breeze
That chills the air and drifts the snow
And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe
When springtime makes its way here
Lilac blooms reminds me of the scent of your perfume
When summer burns with heat
I always get the hots for you
Go skinny dippin' in the ocean where we used to do
When autumn sheds the leaves the trees are bare
When you're not here it doesn't feel the same

Remember the nights when we closed our eyes
And vowed that you and I would be in love for all time
Anytime I think about these things is shared with you
I break down and cry 'cause I get so emotional
Until you release me I'm bound under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love as I watch four seasons change

Chorus

This loneliness Has crushed my heart
Please let me love again
'Cause I need your love to comfort me and ease my pain
Or four seasons will bring the loneliness again

shitzxc i dont feel like doing my homework already.
haha i really have no idea why that OMG! nicole aspires to blog like me someday.
and she thinks that its funny that i'm lazy. ()h miie tian ^^
is it selfish of me to still want you to love me wholeheartedly?
i feel quite sad that my angel matt is gonna be enlisted in the army/serving in camp next month.
you shouldnt and i should not want this
oh and thank god, my grandmother's feeling so much better! just yesterday she was unable to walk and that scared me quite a bit.
but the thing is, i do. i do, so much
xoxo

has your world ever come crashing down on you, cos mine is

all this ambiguity is killing me.

how do you breathe when there's no more oxygen in the air?
how does the story continue without the main character of the plot?
what happens to all those afraid of the dark when the moon, along with all the stars, is removed from the night sky?
what happens when the most important person of your life involuntarily, or perhaps with your push, walks out on you?
you become breathless.
your life loses its drive.
the pathways of which you walk on becomes dim, dark, un-lit.
simply, you die; or you learn to cope with this loss - in this case the latter is much, much harder.

flyaway.