there's hope in every heartbeat

cross my fingers, i hope thz doesnt slaughter me on friday.
"sarah, you are not on task at all!" grrrrrrrrrrrrr manzxc.
oh and then i'll have to go meet (meat, haha trik) mk on that day too. i bet its gonna be a mind-taxing emotions-draining dayyyyyyy :(

mid-years are in two days. i feel the pressure buildingggggg.
i want to fly away in a hot air ballooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

i havent exactly been feeling the urge blog, dont know why lei/
and i miss mc.
i'm not gonna see her tmr you know, mcfc let's all die.
i'm not gonna see my darling either, sighs

oh well i've got plans for tomorrow alr! yay trik and i will go over to yy's place and do some hardcore mugging. okayi, not some. like plentiful of it - five hours hopefully. i cant afford to screw up my upcoming papers (especially not after failing all my graded assignments). ahur, stresseedddddd. it'll be great if we could squeeze some time off to bake yo.
discipline. and goodness we took a really long time (actually not luh) to find a place which is free-of-distractions, quiet (but not so much that we cant study), got personal space etc.

i cant help but sneeze non-stop. who's thinking of me [so very vigourously (bad vocab so sorry)], own up now alright. sneezes, sneezes.
i think i can form a one-man band yeah.
and what's wrong with me i think the mucus has gotten to my brain. like, block it or something.
i wasnt talking any sense when i was phoning trik just now.
gross.

what an ugly post, yuck.

i feel impatient.
ciao.
sneezes on you

emotions

updated:

four rv netballers found dead in the kalamari desert (actually, the netball court).
cause of death is unknown, corpses were found sprawled on the floor.
however, a possibility would be excessive inhalation of pesticide (uh, they were spraying it yo).
sarah: are we mosquitoes? are we? are we?!
trik: yes, yes we're pests.
sarah and trik and kristal and rae: *dies*

trik: eh, are you taking? are you? (talking to kristal abt shooting statistics)
kristal: yes...
sarah: yes, yes! *uses handphone to pretend to take pictures (like my phone has a camera)*
trik: *gives a dang lame face* *starts doing ultra unglam poses* *james bond hahahhahha*
kristal: HURRY UP I WANT TO GO HOME!
trik: okay, okay, i know. i want to go home too. we all miss home very much.

and then, we cracked ourselves up by lip-syncing/singing and trying to shoot album covers (using shadows). oh and by planning to throw the soccer ball over the fence if it rolled to us, because the boys said something rather crude to us (like chio) and they didnt want to pass our ball back initially, grrrrrr.
my, it was awfully fun under the sun!

oh and well, it was so dang embarrassing today cos i, along with four other classmates (btw chairman included), had to shift my table and chair out of the classroom to complete my assignment. so i/we had to bear with all the quizical looks those people from level two (who were going about their toilet routine so the untimely) shot me/us.
and i know the parental department is very disappointed in me cos thz called them up. and dang, fish and i have gotta face mk tmr. die, die, die. last words, anybody?

yay thanks twinneh again for kite!

darling i came so close to losing you.
i never ever ever ever want to experience it again.
never.
and, (no)sorry.

ciao

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the more i try to hide them, the more i am revealing them.

thanks twinneh :)

why wont you take all of me and sweep me off my feet

i didnt go for bible class because the parental unit woke up only at 0930. and then i had another boring sunday afternoon at changi's safra.
i succumbed to peer, no, sibling pressure and played one game of bowling. guess what, i got my first ever strike, ten pins down yo! beams and starts laughing at all the other asses who still use alley bumpers (like my brother the imbecile haha).
after that i started revising for physics. i did like, half a worksheet before i kicked the table leg out of exasperation and desperation (because there were only two questions i understood), afterwhich i started tearing because it felt as though my big-toe was broken.
oh and i slept by the poolside again (p.s. i saw gross scandalous stuff).

urgh. well kristal and yeyun, i agree with you both that life isnt exactly (always) fair. but i guess "it can only be summarised in three words: it goes on."
we'll all be happier counting our blessings, no matter how great or how small. hey, someday! someday MC will talk to us casually (like friends)! someday MC will appreciate what we have down (or what we are intending to do)! life is not fair, but think about it, your life is good enough (because you've got me as your girlfriend number two, haha kidding).

my dad said something which shook me hard pretty much.
he said "dont take these things for granted."
i must admit that i have been. i have always been taking a lot of things for granted. if i really really want something i know how to get it. i can play around with my words, the person, and whatever circumstances may be. now there's this something or someone that i dont want to take for granted. but thing is, i cant even take it. much less, take it for granted.

why dont i mean to you as much as you mean to me,
ciao.

today (all in the name of love)

mc, mc, mc, mc ... ... mc, mc, mc, mc ... ... mc, mc ... mc!
i cant stop thinking about her!
oh die i think i am infatuated (by the way this word means that you can look at a uhm, mushroom and actually see ms chen - oh what a horrible example anyw). haha, mcfc, we all are.
went to our blog and readdddd trik's longggggg post and got myself jealous all over again. well i was literally squealing with excitement when i talked/screamed/shouted/squealed with trik on the phone yesterday (abt her first officially casual mc-conversation).
MCHF (is that a lil too obvious oops hah) :D

okayi, to my (other) love (besides MC) -
HAPPYYYYY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY!

works,
ciao.

tomorrow (is important)

i've got the star constellations! okayi i stole them from trik's phone (i couldnt help myself):
- betelgeuse
- bellatrix
- alnitak
- alnilam
- mintaka
- orion nebula
- saiph
- rigel
some of them sound pretty funny.

i am proud of myself because i finally picked up what nouns, adjectives, adverbs and verbs are. like finally, after fourteen years of my life.

read the title.

darlinggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg,
ciao.

the shadow of the day

okayi, let's just say i have no idea how to operate this (sound tech) thing. ooofs but i managed to come up with an arranged bar of beat (how wonderful)!

darling where's your patience?! hur, where? :D

i'm going to be awfully fat cos i had three cakes yesterday - okay enough of my birthday stuff because suddenly i feel like i never want to grow up. maybe i got sorta influenced by mitch albom's for one more day. kids lead wonderful, innocent lives. kids do not try to commit suicide thrice and fail all three times (seriously, how pathetic could chick get). kids are happy.
"my teacher asked me what i wanted to be when i grew up. i said, i wanted to be happy. she told me i didnt understand the question. i told her that she didnt understand life."

i've got another aspiration! okay to date: zookeeper (half time)! lawyer (half time)! writer (half time)! photographer (freelance)! sunflower grower (quarter time)!
i hereby add language arts teacher to this longggg obcrate list.
well ms chew said i will be a good one because i am meticulous (and yay).

well i went around to look for/buy ______ ___________ with tricia kok! she was such a naughty girl today, tsk. but oh well thanks a gahzillion for skipping your tuition to gallivant about with me (or maybe you should be thanking me). oops what cat did i just let outta the bag.
anyw, as i was sayinggg - oh we came back empty handed (save for sushi i guess).
it was reallyyy funny, how we pretended to be uh some interviewer and interviewee (now, didnt your mom teach you how to offer your chocolates, haha). and how we almost pee-ed in our pants. and how that idiot was scratching her throaat. and how we were trying to hide from ___ ___ cos this fella was in her PE attire. hhahahhahahhaha, laughs your head off.
yay hyung!

dont you all want to own what you like/love?
dont you? why act so noble and force it upon yourselves that "nothing can be wrong if she be well" (r and j quote btw)?
you know your heart never truly buys it.
i dont get it, i dont get it, i dont get it............!
sometimes i dont get myself either.

there is nothing brilliantly lit(erature) about this post (sigh).
sometimes,
i wonder if the sky is really green,
ciao.

happy birthday to me, one

a wee short post cos i have like a whole mountain of shit, i mean homework.

thank you for your unpredictable and wicked (haha) gifts, and oh yes for good wishes/remembering too.

i accepted my first proposal today <3
then got a couple of other gifts/and a cake.
and thank goodness for speedpost yo (the impossibly big photo collage and the collection of CDs)!
what shocked me the most was the professional home (music) studio. i mean, i got home and went to my room, only to find two unfamiliar men in blue shirts unpacking this gigantic box (like seriously big please). took a closer look and realised that it was a home studio (oh my oh my oh my). i was reallyyyyyy excited but i felt even more guilty cos the most inexpensive one i have ever come across costs near a thousand bucks. oh, jamsters.! -melts-

and my primary school buddies remembered my birthdayyyyyy!
i was really touched.
you can say it again,
i was really touch.
"little miss scatterbrain was just a little bit forgetful.
you can say that again.
little miss scatterbrain was just a little bit forgetful."

pizza, and more cake.
i feel less forgotten.

oh yay :D