yours sincerely

EDITED @ 3.39PM
horrible horrible horrible i feel like spitting out a longgg string of freaking uncivilised vulgarities at my grandaunt who is back here at my house. she used to live with us but she moved out almost a month ago. believe me, my house has been more at peace and a more joyful place to live in since then. until now.
well i shall not let her dig out the worst side of me (yelling my funny toes off with my face red with fury fists shaking with rebuff with mouth hanging from strewing vulgarities i am no longer able to contain), as i believe that it is and has always been her motto for living (what a no life-er).

it isnt like i havent tried to put up with her bias actions and behaviour.
it isnt like i havent tried to offer to lend a helping hand (although it was only when she was leaving and she needed to shift her stuff out and i was more than glad to help).
it isnt like i havent tried to give her the very least due respect because i was advised to since she is, after all, this grandaunt who watched me grow from an innocent little child with huge adoring eyes to this.. this.. this black monster.
it isnt like i never apologised.

maybe i never really tried that hard and all that so fine it is my fault everything is my fault okayi i admit that everything bad around the house happened because of me i am a jinx and i jinxed her too it is my fault.

it so is my fault if jerald is at grandmom's place and her other reason for being here (besides traumatising me and making me sound like a juvenile delinquent) is to actually pass him his stuff and talk to him and to show him his new study table she so lovingly chose out for him (actually i dont think my brother will like it but whatever).
it is also my fault when there is leftover food (mind you the bowl of noodles was covered with a plate and the table top was wiped clean already). yeah it so is my fault if my brother is so full i can see his paunch alr but he still wants to keep it for later and i can see the logic behind his decision cos he gets insanely hungry after coming back from the playground.
it is also my fault that my hell of a phone lags (i wonder why, only when the texter's my grandaunt) and she didnt get my reply one quarter of a second after she sent me that text.
it is also my fault that the house hasnt been cleaned up thoroughly, like really thoroughly for two and a half weeks cos my parental department and co-units have been staying in my grand's and we (minus my maid who is still cleaning up over there) moved back only two days ago (okay this can be argued like um, i should have cleaned the house or something when i came back but urgh looking after jovan is more than a handful already and well... i havent really done any housework before - i mean besides washing cups or plates occasionally.)
it is yeah like totally my fault that i have friends. friends who call me on the home phone (when she is talking to me).
lastly it is my fault that i lead an active love life (i dont, actually). and she found out by reading through my most private letters which i keep on my desk and anyone wise enough (like my brothers who recently gained the sense to do so) will know never to touch the things there.

anyw, i had to throw out the rubbish into this common chute (hdb chute thingy lah) and i swear never to go near it again. and again. and again.
like okay i know it stinks. and i know it can be really hard to open the lid (by stepping on the pedal) sometimes.
what i didnt know was that freaking cockroaches hide inside the chute awaiting the opportunity to jump on you (chill it didnt jump on me though).
i mustered all the courage i had left after being so severly criticized/reprimanded by my grandaunt and stepped on that pedal.
afterwhich i threw the two plastic bags of rubbish into that dang thing and suddenly one grotesque coackroach flew outta the chute and landed one nasty metre away from me.
and i screamed.
so loud my brother ran towards me to sorta check if i was still alive, you know (from the house and i was running back to the house/towards him so we bumped into each other and we both fell to the floor).

i am going to have to mop the floor later on (because she says so) and yes please pray that nothing happens to me please.

i am dignified,
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drifting logs can be pulled back together
time does no justice to the heart
initiative, yours to take if willing parties abide
you bet i will reply
i havent forgotten you who finds joy in tickling

great vision you must have then
remember to apply it on court
me too and i always do
what else, hedge hog, cheeker, horse
dont let our friendship too

alright quit laughing at me i know its one hell of a laopok poem reply (which doesnt make sense unless you put the other poem next to it and compare them line by line)
sincerity is the key in any message you are trying to put across, though :D

xoxo

but all these thoughts are leaving you tonight

EDITED @ 9.08PM
and i totally flipped/sucked during training!!! !!! !!! :(
*dies more devastatingly (hur?!)*

EDITED @ 9.01PM
i had one whole eel for lunch today!!! !!! !!! :D
*hyperventilates*

screw the photoshooting company policy!!! !!! !!! D:
*hyperventilates more*

boy am i hungry!!! !!! !!! :O
*hyperventilates even more*

grrrrrrrrr.
*and dies*

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i am blogging because sudden inspiration/encouragement from my dearest trik hyung struck me.

you say i'm a stranger, still says:
OH SHIT

you say i'm a stranger, still says:
WATER WENT UP MY NOSE!

its so says:
tsk! again?!

its so says:
i think you should amke a list of the things that go up your nose

you say i'm a stranger, still says:
okayi, fine

you say i'm a stranger, still says:
i shaaaaall do it hahahhahahhahahha

its so says:
hahahaha

its so says:
okay good

you say i'm a stranger, still says:
actually not a lot lei, only like four lah!

its so says:
maybe then you can like submit it to the world records thingy

you say i'm a stranger, still says:
hahahhahahhaa

so hahha, here's the much awaited list!
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Things which have gone up my nose:

1. Water from the swimming pool
   - way back when i was little, like six or something. but c'mon lah everyone has got this experience!
2. Spaghetti strands from Pasta Mania
   - and i tell you why it happened! trik was feeeeeding me like so much (or many strands) at a time and she reloaded my mouth so fast, it just sorta went up my nose. oh and i sneezed/blew it out (of my nose). big deal.
3. Cheese
   - this has got to do with trik too! cos me and liv were over at trik's and we were starving so we shared a slice of cheese. and then um, it just went up my nose. i blew them/it out too. and the smell didnt go away till days later it was awful.
4. Water
   - just minutes ago when i was drinking from my mug. it just did, okay?!

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oh no there's traininggg later on.
i'm hungry already ............!

xoxo

- misses .

and darling,
I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET YOU (AGAIN)!

will youuuuuuuuuuuu forgive me? :/

i believe i can fly

tsk super anti-climax manzxc.

just when my heated discussion with hueychyi on bras and all that was/is getting way cool i have to go off/out/away/between/inside/down hahaha.
i know i'm not making any/much sense but people who actually discuss bra-things are really not as sensible (um) as they should be.

but then its really very uncomfortable (hahahha if you get what i mean).

ciaaaaao :D

seems like its been forever since you've been gone, please come back home

okayi alright say hi to strawbeary, sunkiss' (number two) best friend! :D

not bad sia, i think its been ages since i came to my grandma's house cos i just realised that they do have internet access after all! thrrreeeeeeee cheeeeerrrrrrrs
but then there's only like this one freaking laggggg laptop and everyone in the house queues to use it (and somehow i'm always last in the line grr).
anyw yes i am gonna stay here (at my grand's) for six days (oh die thats like so long) because my grandmommmm went to macau and she left her dearest dog in singapore, so we've gotta take care of it.
elmo (the silver mini schnauzer) is so very pampered he/it cant sleep anywhere else but here so the whole company (parental department + co-units) has to stay over.
big-shot dog.

went over to trik's house after training and boy am i terribly sorry for sorta um, pangsehing rae yeyun lois kristal (cos i didnt go to vivo in the end)
i'm sure those magnanimous people will forgive me/trik, yes yes yes.
watched like a few episodes of this super exciting hongkong serial (if i'm not wrong its called the best ever crime-fighters or something like that loh) and livia hyung joined us!
watched and watched and watched and we shared a slice of cheese.
thaaaat cheese went up my nose! and i blew it out!
(hahahah hyung the pastamania incidentttttt) it was really gross.
i can still smell that stench of the cheese (not that i mind now).
but its so strong i think it'll stay in there for the nexttt hundred days (okay i do mind can)!
ate (very late) dinner at her place.
livia says that zac (trik's eight year old brother) likes me but i beg to differrr.
sigh i think trik's maid/househelper is terribly rude to her and my oh my our dearest hyung does not deserve to be treated that way!
walaoeh, dare to bully a bully ganggg member siaaaaa.

hahahhahhahahhaha.
the skirt incident in schoool.
i hope kristal has found the/her correct skirt! :D

i think my computer time is almost up - we have internet rationing here, tsk.
my brother the irritating is screaming in the background.
okayi this is so abrupt goodbye and goodnight.

i miss you and i will continue to the next six days :(

p.s. post dedicated to my momo will come up when i return to my yew tee home. happy waitingggggg my deaaaaaars.

you'll always be a part of me, i'm a part of you indefinitely

dont you think the shadows look like dna strands (or whatever you call them)?
i cooked her egg and she cooked mine - edible stuff fyi (@ her place)
well it was (rather) deserted and we were talking a lot so we decided to shout out how we felt.
most of it sounded like
"I MISS MISS PUVA!"
"C'DIV 08 WHERE ARE YOU!"
"C'DIV 08!"
stupid thing threw her duffel bag into the tree!
never knew hueychyi could look so cute eh!

my (ex)boyfriend number one totally dated (well sort of) me for the whole day. i got sent out of school/training (again! sigh) so she took me in and we ended up spending like ten hours (plus plus) with each other.

i stayed at her house till about 3+PM before we headed to choa chu kang. time flew (like seriously) super-duperly fast when we were watching intriguing MVs and coolio/grotty new songs and disgusting/sick/saddistic stuff (youtube) at her place. we cooked and she made me wash most of the dishes (so like home econs lessons hahaha).

wanted to play basketball at first but we both felt like sleeping when we reached the court (@ limbang park) so yayyy went to my house.
watched 27 dresses and its quite a cute movie!

my dad said she could stay over (o.o?!?!) lei.

anyway premium-grade boyfriend was freakkinggggg awesome today!
1) the fun and the laughter
2) talking
3) earpiece
4) garlic bread

yay i have awesome hyungs and an awesome boyfriend-hyung!
LUBDUB *inserts heart*

why dont you miss me :(
xoxo

wish there was something inside me, to keep you beside me

call me childish or whatever, anyhow its a tid for a tad.

and walaoeh, why doesnt anyone (none at all) get the seriousness of this!
our dearest cleo's (or in my case, my dearest momo's) birthday is in -um count the hours please i'm having a headache now-!
maybe they all dont bother because they have already got their perfect gift wrapped up, and people like joonghan will just write an enormous 'I O U' card (like i used to do before i became thoughtful).
my point here is that, i have like no ideas for herrrrr gift at all (besides one spect of dust, um alfred.....)!
momo if you're reading this dont worry i'm just trying to scare you as a matter of fact your super huge thing is now on my bedroom floor so yeah just enjoy the last day of you beinggg fifteeeeeeen....! *ahem*
i'm quite a good liar in case you havent noticed.
DIE MANZXC.

yoursuperheromonstersizedsmile! says:
hahaha lady wld u just chill?
yoursuperheromonstersizedsmile! says:
she wun slaughter u for nt giving her a present
yoursuperheromonstersizedsmile! says:
or else u will b dead by nw
yoursuperheromonstersizedsmile! says:
since whn u give her presents =.=

i have awesome friends.

and i think i'll be having vocal lessons with my angel.
bless me.

xoxo
i know i'm losing you