if it kills me

well all I really wanna do is love you

a kind much closer than friends use
but I still can't say it after all we've been through
and all I really want from you is to feel me
as the feeling inside keeps building
and I will find a way to you if it kills me
if it kills me
(jason mraz's song)

spend my late morning watching hotshot and ignoring (almost) everyone who talked to me on MSN.
the show's getting kinda sad now. it must be real difficult and painful to give away the one you love.

then we had a friendly with tanglin trust school.
my, their courts are indoors and air-conditioned! was quite grand, reminded me of perth. i/we all was/were freeezing inside though, had a hard time breathing cos the air was cold and dry.
they're quite fast.
(as leeyin said) their play is sort of unpredictable, too, cos they dont exactly have a game-plan they stick very much to.
i didnt play very well :(
but as a whole, well done RVNB :D

saw the singapore slingers (who were thr for training i suppose) and i realised that most of them arent even chinese (nor malay nor indians), much less singaporeans.
"imported" basketballers lor
the other day tanya was saying that netball is about the only sport here in singapore with real local talents. quite true :)

sang a trik a belated bday song after the game. yeyun and i presented her our shared gifts (um a yellow construction worker helmet, two case-file folders, and a handcuff)! :D
btw, trik's ambition is to be a detective.
plastic bag on the floor - "investigate lei! case of littering!"
red paint on a sign - "eh oh my god i think its blood! trik go be detective!"
a villa - "i think that's whr they hold hostages! go trik!"
hahaha

had dinner at BK with xuan (my horse who piggybacked me) clau cyn ethel liv!
hahah the staff served cyn her order wrongly and she was too nice to complain/feedback!
funny bunch.
went to the basement to buy waffles/cheese balls and i saw CT netballers! hahah more like the other way round.
it somehow feels good to be regconised.
oh and i bought some rly marvelous cookies to last me through lessons tmr
even btr than famous amos'! they're called little jerry cookies i think.
awesome awesome awesome
hahaha tm, you're very fortunate to be sitting beside me.

i have decided to change my dieting plan since thr is no way i'm gna stick to the current one.
instead of eating as little as possible to cut down on my fatty intakes,
i shall eat something every hour so as to increase my metabolism rate! that way, my body will burn all the calories at a much shorter time :D
hahaha i'm so brilliant

i'm jealous of rae like totally
two days ago i bought a pair of sony MDR-EX85LP/R
i was quite happy with it until i saw rae's shure earphones. single drive if i'm not wrong. and she was so nonchalent about it. okayi fine she didnt even know it was thaaaaaaat gooood. walaoeh hahaha

tell me what i should do to make you come back to me.
i'll fail in everything just to hear an encouragement from you.
if it kills me. that's what it takes

xoxo

p.s. sknaht :)

you made me believe that there was nothing in this world i couldnt be

i still dont know what you see,
but there was something in the way you looked at me, darling

i have been reaching sch on the dot the past one week or so.
i braved through lots of near escape from yellow slip (latecomer's form)

slept for an hour during CID.
cos it was reallyyyyy dark and LT's air-conditioned.
plus i slept kinda late last night.
along with the exams, my discipline, rigour, urgency and ability to stay awake in lessons have gone too.

got back almost all the papers.
what a feat, i got my first ever A1 for chinese (paper 2) since i stepped into RV hahah hurry congratulate me !!!
trik too, so well done :D

the netballers who ran the 4x100m and 4x400m events totallyyy owneddddddddddd !!!
hahaha gay runners, you guys are cool the max
RVNB ftw :D
training was okay i guess. sort of productive cos i got to work my runs/passes quite a bit.
i have so much to work on though, really hope its not too late to start working hard.
that's what i always say but i dont usually put it to actions.
that wont be the case this time, for i will be doing passes and stuff with clau tmr morning hohoho :)

and helloooo! i heard it, i drank it.
was srsly encouraged (no sarcasm intended).
sknaht :D :D :D

oh and btw, i oh so carelessly left my phone under my desk so please dont get mad if i dont reply your messages hahahha

i'm happy yet empty

i'll wait till kingdom comes

that's just the way we roll

minus the fact that i got back my chem results, tdy was awesome :)
spent the whole day with rafflesia (considering that i do sit beside her in class afterall) and we parted near 8PM.
were stuffing ourselves silly, but damn, it was insane fun.

i didnt go for training, but i didnt go get my muscles rubbed/massaged either.
went out with rafflesia instead and our first stop was island creamery at serene centre!
that seven days of (trying to abstain/) abstaining from all that sweet sugary and oily stuff (the dieting, basically) was in vain after all the the ice-cream we ate:
(arranged in order)

• 1 mudpie
• 1 scoop of apple pie ice-cream
• 1 scoop of reverseo ice-cream
• 1 scoop of cookies and cream ice-cream
• 1 scoop of strawberry sorbet
• 1 scoop of teh tarik ice-cream
• 1 scoop of yoghurt ice-cream

that's quite a lot of calories

then we got sick of all that creamy cold stuff so we walked (and laughed the whole way, "BLINK! BLINK! HAHHAHAHA") two roads across to adam's food centre whr we shared a bowl of the acclaimed prawn noodles.
good.
just, freakingg good hahahha.

had a drink. it was non-alcoholic btw hahahah sparkling ribena juice.

then we damn randomly headed to cold storage whr we walked many x 100000 rounds.
we asked the "fresh new person" (yknow colds storage, the fresh new people hhahaha) if they sold lubricant and i think that lady thought we were looking for that thing so it was rly embarrassing. blister lubricant luh! for the foot, not genitals
and we carried 2litre bottles of washing detergent around in a bid to toughen up our muscles. i dont know how to pen the experience across in words, because it was too damn hilarious
hahahahah

walked out empty handed.

frolicked (not exactly but anyw,) to another mini shopping centre (crown's if i'm noy wrong). explored the place a little (bookshop, toyshop, sweet shop) then we went to NTUC!
supermarkets are like our favourite place to be.
then got hungry (again) so we stopped by at one of the cafes/food stalls one level up and got ourselves a popiah to share.
i must say that they have rly delicious stuff thr (bukit timah/adam's road area/near ccab) !!!

last stop was 7-11! camwhored (i mean, we tried to) outside the place because they had an amazing sliding door that was very unlike all the other 7-11 outlet entrances we've seen thus far. took like one million pictures but i wasnt satisfied with a single one though i deleted them all hahahah.
the sky was still bright then.
after that we went in and camwhored (tried to) again! this time in a secluded corner without the disturbance of others interrupting our smile moments
i saved two pictures :)
out of twenty. hahahaha

couldnt go out without buying anything cos we made lots of noise and all, so we got a mash potato.

took bus 67 from a nearby bus stop. went on separate ways at CCK.

aaaaaaaaah all that food! plus tmr's run has been changed to a swim so everyone will like see my paunch/atrociously big thighs zomg
but well come to think of it, at least everything was shared :)

to end this post which does no justice of the fabulous times we spent tdy, yay tablemate!


btw, for a more exhaustive list of things i eat daily you may click here.

so hold me close and say three words like you used to do

its rly all about you.

"Failure is an event, never a person."
- Beerbohm Max

at 9AM, i was walking around in JP with weijie. to look for claire's birthday gift
but all the stores were closed except for mac/subway/kfc etc
hahahaha silly of us. spent half the time in the arcade trying to win damn cute soft toys inside scam machines.
we didnt frame up 14 guitar picks in the end cos we couldnt buy enough picks :(
so we gave her some awfully random things put in an airlock container, hoped she liked it anyw :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAIRE BON!
you've got aura :)

lunched at pizza hut .. noise pollution manzxc !!! thr were like twenty of us (aye attendance btr than class outing can)
knocked my head against rafflesia's chair was freaking painful i almost forgot almond hahaha (joshua ang are you reading this?)
tricked bday girl with candles that constantly reignite no matter how hard/many times you blow. hahahaha i think someone videoed it. damn funny

went to the arcade agn, this time with alllll of them. i left ten mins before threee. trained down to my greatgrandparents' place (which is whr i am blogging from now)
... ONLY TO REALISE THAT I'M FREAKING EARLY.
i think everyone else's gna come at like 6PM.
so i helped out with the decor and i fell from the ladder zomggggg hhahahahha

and hey, i still wna say sknaht for everything :D
sknaht for everything
sknaht for everything
sknaht for everything
sknaht for everything
sknaht for everything
sknaht for everything
sknaht for everything
sknaht for everything
sknaht for everything
sknaht for everything

hahahaha

xoxo