it all boils down to this, doesnt it?

this morning at 6.24AM, i meekly showed my result slip to daddy. he hastily signed it before going back to sleep and i thought he was letting me off. kinda dubious, and i should have known. let's just say i was optimistic.
my happiness/optimism was not to be; he fetched me home from KNC at night and i got a real long tongue-lashing. it was all one-sided talk, because really, what could i have said?
we made a compromise: if i do not get at least 3.0 for next term's GPA, i will be cut off from my netball entity.
to be honest i dont think i can do it. not at the rate i'm flunking all my tests (there were three today, btw). half the battle's already gone. and it really isn't that i don't want to learn or anything. i'd love to study stars and constellations, about animals and how to run a zoo, about the mechanism of languages and such. but i'm not cut out to be the best of friends with numbers (math to be exact), sciences like chem, and i take my hats off to you unsympathizing people who get your regular 'A's.
it's all about interest.
it's all about the heart.
it's all about effort,
the time you put into every subject.
but what if i'm really, sad to say, not cut out for studying?
i just want to be is a happy zookeeper. if i dont graduate, dont get a degree, and end up being job-less when i grow up, i guess i'll just be MCFC's secretary forever.

met T at harbourfront right after school.

rushed back at two-ish to take year one juniors for training. i think not a single part of it was productive and it isn't entirely the juniors' fault.
we've been doing the exact same things over and over again every single week.
it gets boring and everyone's losing interest, but how do we move on when basics are not grasped?
then us seniors get tired of repeating the same words over and over, and we dont take this training thing seriously anymore.
half the time we're lazing around, talking or playing by ourselves, leaving only the few dedicated and patient year3s to get the program running.
it's no wonder no one looks up to us, we dont instill fear, we dont command respect.
i know how it feels to be ahem ahem ahem ahem ahem ahem ahem ahem ahem ahem, but even so we know we're so much better than this. we can do it together.

anyw, after that played a little of tennis at the school's no-net court :)

then went to KNC for club's killer training.
the first hot-spot drill qiuying may and i did already seemingly detached my limbs from my body
but good workout as usual, seven up! :D
at the end had a not very surprising belated birthday surprise for coach! :)
huge, good, chunky choc banana cake from secret recipe, a birthday song, and a card (thanks ho!)
no pictures cos the lights at the court were switched off in the mid of the cake-cutting ceremony and we all had to shift to the brighter place outside office. anti-climax.
i like fri cos the attendance is higher and we always get to do more varied drills

where do i start?

thanks for being with me throughout :)

no title cos i shuang \m/

DELLA AND I ARE PLAYING SCISSORS PAPER STONE ON MSN.
no joke.

i show you.

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
wahahas

2B-PENCIL'o8! {11} ( ) says:
uhz scissors paper stone then loser choose

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
dont want

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
like that not fair

2B-PENCIL'o8! {11} ( ) says:
dont care

2B-PENCIL'o8! {11} ( ) says:
scissors...

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
okok

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
rock

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
hahas

2B-PENCIL'o8! {11} ( ) says:
paper...

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
scissors

2B-PENCIL'o8! {11} ( ) says:
STONE!

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
paper

2B-PENCIL'o8! {11} ( ) says:
okayi i win so you choose

2B-PENCIL'o8! {11} ( ) says:
scissors

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
rock

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
hehes

2B-PENCIL'o8! {11} ( ) says:
paper

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
you choooes

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
scissors

2B-PENCIL'o8! {11} ( ) says:
stone

[c=48]Della![/c] says:
paper

2B-PENCIL'o8! {11} ( ) says:
HAHAHAH stop it

that's besides the main point. the very main point is, almost nothing went as planned today!
still quite an eventful and fun day nevertheless.

1. self-training! for once, trish was with us and livia was like exclaming, "SHE'S OURS !!!"
   anyw it was longer than expected. more tiring than usual. we did drills, street netball, down the line, half court, 2 suicides, teeny weeny bit of abs.
   and walao kristal even suggested going to hortpark to run hahaha
   
   
2. lunch (rae kristal lois jiarui trish livia and i) at anchorpoint's koufu! been a reaaaaally long time since like, we went out to eat as a group like that :)
   
   
3. after kris rae jiarui left, the rest of us went to queensway library (my very first time, and we saw mr desmond lim) to well, study and/or read. productive for me cos i completed a chick-lit book! was in a mood for no-brainer kinda sappy teen romance hahaha.
   had dinner at cafe galilee (trish thought the latter word was some kinda SINGLISH word, like people who cant pronounce "GALLERY" would say "GALILEE". sucker! hahaha)
   oreo cheesecake + drumlets + chicken pieces + cookie and cream moo!
   
   
4. club training @ KNC !! grrrrrrr i was late for fifteen minutes thank goodness they hadn't started. today's trg was fun in a way! not that boring and i think my runs improved by a littttttllllleeeee bit! focus focus focus seven-up! :) :) when is NL btw?
   
   
5. parental department brought along co-units and we all went to have supper at geylang! i could only watch while they gobbled up delish frog's leg and porridgeeeeee !! :(
   i am sticking very strictly to my diet. NO SUPPER
   though i alr ate a lot for lunch/dinner

THIS IS A VERY GIBBERISH POST

that's all folks :)

good example of a terrific day

1. to have woken up on time in the morning.
   
   
2. to not have freaked out cos chance of being late for school was 0 instead of the usual 50-50.
   
   
3. to have only gone for 1 hour 20 mins of lessons.
   
   
4. to have witnessed RVNB's double victory! :) :) :)
   esp when i was the timekeeper who chased after the umpire, counting down the seconds to the final whistle of b'div's match.
   c'div - 1st in west zone
   b'div - 3rd in west zone
   non-team - best sai kang warriors in west zone
   
   
5. to have had a simple dinner, fully paid by the teachers as i assume, with the netball family.
   
   
6. to have gotten a seat in the one hour long mrt-ride from chinese garden to simei!
   
   
7. to have trained productively!
   have got to work on my takes (more agressive, stronger) , passes (harder, faster) , agility movements (lesser lag time) , and i've to stop holding the ball for too long so much that it kills others' timings grrrr. but overall felt like a good work out, and i find that seven-up's chemistry is improving! :D
   
   
8. to have had my dad fetch me home.
   
   
9. to have met T, sam the wonderman, joong and tanya for 7-11 food under the stars opp my block!
   
   
10. to realise its the start of march holidays. awesome.
    

MCFC, this is for every single one of you!

i know, i know! but don't get so excited just yet, i'll explain it in a moment, somewhere in this predictably long post :)

i have nothing much to say about classes for now, except that i was really delighted and rather relieved cos we didn't have to present our CID P.I. in LT today. but some things i cant avoid forever, so next week grrrrr i am the forced speaker :(

after school i did corrective work order for forty five mins cos i've been late four times this year already. i went to all the year 1 to 3 classrooms to count tables (which has under-desk, which doesnt etc) !! then i had to tidy up some unusually dirty classrooms. so anyw, if you realise that your class is somehow cleaner than it's supposed to be, or if your desks are perfectly aligned but no one is admitting to having done extra duty, YOU KNOW ITS ME :) :) :)

stayed back for RV vs Yuan Ching game and it was quite close? but keep going RVNB take them all down one at a time and when you reach the peak you''ll see how wonderful it is to have everyone looking up to you :)

kristal randomly suggested going to cold rock right after the match ended so she lois jiarui and i rushed to holland v to fill ourselves with the most awesome mix-in icecream !!
we ate more than three mere kiddy scoops!














spent like, more than thirty bucks in all? could've stuffed ourselves silly, literally, had we lavishly used the money at island creamery, but it was worth it cos it has been ages since i last went to cold rock! bubblegum icecream :) :) :)

then we went on to party city to get a helium balloon for miss chen !!
a pink heart-shaped one, baby :)
then we decided to decorate it with (three, to be exact) post-it notes and this is where all the excitement comes in !!

























































































































so.... i brought the really sweet surprise all the way to KNC. on my way i bumped into many people. they got really irritated but i suppose the stares fixtured on me were worthwhile :)

SO I GAVE THE BALLOON TO MC IN A RATHER UNEXPECTED WAY? like i asked her to help me hold it then after a while i told her it was for her heee :D
we conversed a bit too, hahaha like, more than fifteen exchanges?
about myself, about RVNB, about my club, about ML buying us bubble tea for v-day, abt kristal writing a compo on her and getting A1 for it (to which she replied something really egoistic but awesomely cute!) and stuff :)
anyw, she advised that i should tell ML about speed7 so i shall do it tmr morning :)

training wasn't exactly good for me because i feel that i've lost my play. it's very troubling and disturbing, really.
my sprints/drives no longer have that take-off burst, and my passes are becoming complacent and really slow.
yes, i'm losing the netball touch even during club trainings grrrrrrr
jas' dad sent us home so i got back relatively early, like ten minutes to eleven pm

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so i've got bio test tomorrow morning. it is approximately eight hours away.
that's all the time i have to study (that is, if i dont sleep at all).
i haven't started oh no its 11.51pm

am now going downstairs to meet T and joonghan for a quick round of soda+rum to freshen up. i need something/someone to keep me awake through the night
i'll be back in less than an hour

then again i'm contemplating if i should skip school tmr
maybe not cos after all i've been absent more times these two months than i have been the whole of last year
a bit suspicious
a bit not very good
a bit only

no one is perfect,

but i still love you for who you are. even if you have a scar from the edge to the small of your back :)

forgive me for starting my post with a cliche.

i had chem make-up after classes ended today. because i was absent last thurs. i paired up with joyce (even though we were not allowed to, got found out in the end anyw grr) and i think she's a really nice person! :D
so jerome teckchye and whoever boys, bitch-cleaning will NOT exterminate half the entire sg population hello.

after that i camped at the grandstand with lois eva yeyun kristal livia again! must say, caught up with them quite a bit. now i know kristal hated me for a bit earlier on this year (which is actually quite recent, and fyi she told me herself hahaha) !! and more stuff.
we did the YO! PSSSSSS and the GOO GOO JELLYFISH and the BIGGER JELLY FISH !!!
so awesome so awesome so awesome i cant stand it i'll have to sit down!
i have videos so insane but they refuse to let me post them up.

oh and we (non sch team players) have a match against commonwealth bdiv next tues! and perhaps another match this fri? i'm not sure i forgot what ms loo said.

anyw speaking of ms loo, HAHHAHAHAHAH
today in bio lab when we were doing prac, trik saw her sweeping/cleaning up the netball court and repairing our "carpet" !!
TANG2 TANG2 YI1 GE4 LPK (IN A NIKE SHIRT SOMEMORE) DOING SAI KANG.
and the funniest thing was that, from where we were, we could see the cleaners in their yellow and blue uniform sleeping at the grandstand while she was doing all that work.
do you like get it?

then cabbed to the warrens whr i played tennis with chengyong and melanzzo again! third time thus far boy was it fun :) x 100000000000000
maybe cos thr were lights!
there were times i couldnt really return the ball but once i had it going, i have it going.
i am not to be underestimated, need i repeat myself? hahaha

dont think i'll have the time to blog tmr because thr's speed trg in the evening! selection for NL team grrrr !@#$%^&*(
meeting up with yongjia, funny, and perhaps della (?) before going to KNC :)

i want it all :)
my t-bone steak!

because i've lost it once,

i never want to lose it again.

i hope you are reading this, i hope you know that this is for you.
as my PM goes: no matter what you think of me, or how insignificant i am to you, i will always be your true friend however much unregarded.
this already non-existent friendship still means the world to me.
i'll always x 10000000000000 be waiting for your call :)

anyw, i skipped school again yesterday! i was a wee bit unwell and really shagged.
but i felt so much better in the evening (hee) so i went for speed training !!
quite fun as usual esp the throw-ball-in-the-air-and-catch-again thingy although i did it only once while everyone had like, five tries? :)
ended off with 2.5 quarters game (speed vs speed7) and grrrrrrrrrrr my play was very disheartening but nvm i will work very hard i promise.
i dont know what's been happening to me cos it seems like my drives are wrong and my passes are unstable and i'm running straight into defenders. i hope i get my focus back soon :)
seven-up !!

oh and shocking discovery !! realised that i am flat feeted (teehee) during trg last night :(
like after all my fourteen years of life now i finally know why my footprint watermarks are not as beautiful.

well it was A W E S O M E after training because yongjia jasmine funny (yes that is a name) and i hung out for slightly more than an hour cos we were waiting for jas' dad to pick us up from KNC/macdonalds !! :) :)

i now present you my collection of "funny" yongjia pictures! :D































































we were fabulous entertainment we laughed non-stop it was hysterical !!
now we have many many inside jokes hahahhahahahahhaha so FUNNY hor FUNNY

-radio song plays-
sarah: michael buble
jas: simple plan!!

-funny makes fun of yongjia-
yongjia: i choose you! (flashes pokeball)

(right after trg) we shared a happy meal, fries, vanilla milkshake. i suppose i'll just to have another blast of diet day :) :)

i dont know if you guys will see this but thanks x 10000000000000000 for that night (although i reached home near 12am) because it totally redeemed my day :D :D
it was going rather bad at first.

OH AND HOW CAN I FORGET !! I SAW MC TRAINING I HOPE I SEE HER AGAIN !!

i'm looking forward to next thurs! :)

there isnt much left to say because i'll update properly on valentines day and presents when its officially over.
but let's just say i hope tmr is as exciting as it sounds !! :) :)

friday the 13th? let's not believe in superstitions.

not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver

i'm counting the seconds until you break the silence, so please just break the sentence.

hello! i am still very tired despite having slept through my afternoon!
oh and i reached home only at 11 something this morning

no pictures so fk off if you're not in the mood for words which gnarl at you.
I'M JOKING :D

ytd night was speed's xmas party! a bit early yes. hahaha i got my first two presents alr (one from gift exchange, another from miss lim)!
anyw it started at 7.30pm but i wasnt thr till like, 10plus cos my dad detoured here and thr to buy stuff instead of fetching me straight.
and by then like, more than half the people were gone :(
so i didnt rly get to know who's who (if you get what i mean).
so i went thr for the food and to slp (literally) hahaha

mahjong. TV. sandwiches. watch more mahjong. watch more TV. eat more sandwiches.

by like 4am+ those who stayed over (geok, may, charmaine, charis, della, miss lim like duh hello its her house and oh yay i rmbed their names but did i miss anyone out) all conked out in the living room

when i awoke the next day only della may geok (and miss lim like duh hello its her house again) were left. had a reallyyyyy good breakfast (yes we even had mangoes and rice and curry) though they were mainly ytd's leftovers :)
then we sat around the table and talked for like, an hour plus or maybe even two hours, until the adults had to leave for batam
was very very very funny :D

della and i went home tgt and i learnt so so so much abt speed (seven). abt how it was set-up and everything. plus random facts like charmaine's in u21 (or u19 i cant rmb) and she's charis' sister, may and miss lim are sisters too, miss lim's in sneakers but she's our coach, other netball politics etc

i suddenly feel like playing (netball)

okayi so !@#$%^&*(
sorry tanya! we're still friends right hahaha

my second hole on right ear is closing alr :(
k lets go pierce

oh and we (RVNB) might be playing against geok's girls on the 30dec morning. i messaged ms loo (yes i did hahah yay yeyun's in korea now thank goodness) and she seems keen
uh-oh

neeywayyyy,
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so what am i supposed to do in a situation like this?

wise men say only fools rush in

i say, wise men have never been in love.

multiply it by infinity, take it to the depths of forever, and you will only catch a glimpse of how much i love you.

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ytd was happening:

had sports heat (100m individual event).

had weights training.
realised how weak i am physically :(

had court with speed7 at 7.30PM
so i reached home at about 11.30PM last night and i slept after the midnight clock struck.
training was very much productive! i think my performance was a-okayi considering that i havent been on court for bloody six weeks.
maybe its because i felt less pressured plus i had an extra boost of confidence :)
oh and KNC has blue courts now (1 and 2 if i'm not wrong)
i like x 100000000
i think its best to train at night cos my body feels a whole lot less tired.

my body is aching all over though.

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tdy started badly cos i got jabbed in the eye/nose-bridge by some asshole behind me while we were at the LT watching Narnia. hahahah guilty not?

wore my green contacts cos i dont have any regular ones left.
glad i wore them cos thr were lots of video/movie-viewing.
i dont think any teachers besides ms loo (pro vision hahah) noticed, anyw.

wasnt involved in tdy's (RV) training other than the first half hour (which was warm-up) cos of my strained quarts.
i hate doing sprints against the wind.

oh yes. trainings and class chalet do not clash! :D
which means i'm staying overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr hello 2B do you read this

am looking forward to training camp
although ms loo said someth abt it being a platform to choose the players for bdiv team. up till now i'm not sure if i want to be in the main 12.
i dont even know if i'm cut out to undergo all that stress, or if i'm good enough.
sometimes i'd rather not be commited, but other times it feels as if RVNB is not just part, but my whole life.

have been looking for honeydew flavoured sweets (to no avail).

perhaps, its rly just a matter of getting used to it.
hope i do soon.