you cant tame me, when you've set me free

but tonight, my eyes are screaming for the sight of you.

my brothers are screaming again! how gay, i know. i mean, how can someone as cool as me have such siblings tsk
smart people dont sit in the living room with the maid and listen to her tell indonesian ghost stories.... ... ... ....
and end up scurrying into my room in frightttttt - and look is that a glimmer at the edge of your eye, oh my is that a tear!
walaoeh srsly hahahhaha my brothers are like so whatever hahahhaha

i have just finished packing for the WEST MALAYSIA TRIP tmr!
hmm i'll be gone for like, three days "dont miss me too much" (as quoted from eeeeeethel haha)
briefly looked through the itinery and it doesnt seem very much as exciting as i hoped it would be :(
plus they didnt mention anyth about the fireflies watching/viewing the seniors had last year! :O
i do hope we get a chance to see those little thingums maybe it'll sorta be like a surprise for us or someth
ZOMG I AM GETTING MORE EXCITEDDDDDD WOOHOOOO !!!
ar william um dont be too upset that you're not be joining us i'm sure the class will bring someth back for you yeap (if you're reading this :D)

MS PUVA IS AMAZING
she talked to me during jnr's training today
in that mere five minutes she inspired me to put in my all for netball, play my 100%, train hard and work towards b'div
enough of seeing half-hearted runs, enough of watching me step out of court with "regret" all over my face, enough of lousy performances, enough is enough
today you shall (all) be my witness(es):
since mp believes in me, i will not disappoint her. never
just. watch. me.

lois said i'm a trend-setter
if you've seen me around with my pinkkk (star) wand, for your info that's the original one that yuyan made for me.
basically its a star folded using a straw, connected to another longgg straw so that it looks like a wand
the first one you know !!!
hahhaha the rest of 'em are copypigs who decided to follow suit
anyw, (sorry yuyan) i lost my pink one ytd :(
but i've got a purple one alreadyy hahahaha my magic wands magic magic
i am still waiting for my one hundred wands tied tgt. oh its okay you people can queue up, dont rush, eh dont cut queue lah!
i'll wait for your wands hahahahahhaa
i'm joking (but its a hint)

sanjay came over to collect some of the sugaroids (the hard rocky sugar breadcookies i baked with him ytd)!
well we think they're successful cos they're quarter-crispy and as sweet as love
they taste better without the drizzled milk chocolate, though
oh and i got the baking recipe from THE COOKIE BOOK kristal gave me ahhahahah
fortunate international school kids are gonna have their summer holidays soon! even though there arent even seasons in singapore!
lucky (i dont believe in ... nevermind) kid eh sanjay D<

if i continue ranting
i'll never wake up in time to reach sch at 6.30AM tmr
RV's set to kill us i mean what an unearthly hour
i havent been taking the first train for ages, oh wait my dad has a car hahahahha

ciao!
ciao!
ciao!

"i'm leavin', never looking back again"

EDITED @ 1.09PM
back to back com lab lessons cos ms tan (geog tcher) isnt here today! we are supposed to research but if i'm not wrong no one is doing so :P
the keyboard here is so much betterrrrrrrrrrrrr
kbye.

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... ... on a G5 (G5 G5 G5)
... ... watching you (watching you watching you watching you)
... ... amazing (amazing amazing amazing)
... ... let it rain (let it rain let it rain let it rain)
hahahah trik and fish (and livia lim too) rocks to the pear core!

PE was suckish. not that it was entirely the relief tcher's fault

anyw i feel jolly and shandy. no lah
anyw i feel happy now cos i talked to my _______ just before i came to the com lab :)

speaking of computer lessons, the real tcher is back. she has expectations and stuff so i probably wouldnt be blogging (much) in her period anymore
oh and we were made to sit according to reg. numbers so i am at another computer right now.
which is great (for me) cos the spaceboard here is slightly better.
but it isnt as cold here so there isnt really a need but i've still got my team jacket on anyw :D
*flashes you-know-what*
its weird how i havent gotten over this novelty (cos i get bored of things easily)
but then again i dont think i will ever get tired of this

i am having second thoughts abt sanjay's uniform prommmm :S
but i told him i would go!
somehow going to an international school's mini-hall in my pinafore at 9PM for fries and fried fishballs doesnt seem as appealing as it did two days ago
and imagine how much work has to be done in order to lose the fat gained over that one hour (if i eventually graced the event)
though i would very like to go over and sit down to just boy-gaze and snigger to myself when i mentally compare them with RV guys.
oh whoops
i/we'll see how it goes (bah) it isnt everyday my parents allow me to go for someth like that with someone like that, heh

oh and congrats RVNB on the ENL school's div champion title!

i am going to start studying hardd from now on/today. um no, for a start i am going to start studying
my dad has found a way to motivate me yay
if i get 3.5GPA for this term i'll get a laptop/notebook/tablet of my choice
knowing me i'd most likely get everyth upgraded and personalised till the cost blows up my dad eh. and i'm not even thinking of a macbook (air) :O
which is really grrrrrrr-ing cos um the highest i've ever hit so far is a mere 3.3 and dangzxc i know i've failed (horribly, in fact) that day's freaking maths test walaoeh
if i dont hit this um goal i'd have to wait till year end and hit 3.3GPA which is also um. hard. hard is an understatement
but sports seminar (link?) has made me a changed person - champions kick their butts they dont give up (inside uh, statement/joke)!

xoxo
i want to belong (to you), still

pretended it could all be fine

without you by my side.

since i have covered the bully gang outing (to escape) with those qwerty pictures, i thought i'd describe, in words, my exhilirating experience at brian's secret sixteen party (i went to after that).

fact is everyth seems so empty

by the time i got there it was near eleven and half of the crowd was more or less wasted already. i hadnt started on the booze but i was spinning and tired and all that from taking the viking at escape

anyw we were gathering at this mini park in his condo and it was an awesome rendezvous

the point was to bring your own booze there and there were (i think) like, fifteen kids so the variety was many many i couldn resist them myself

usual bacardi, some hard (really hard) liquor, but the best thing was that someone managed to bring in thirty-odd servings of tequila shots - each in a mini wine-glass and a lid on top.

um the self-concocted flavour vodkas were good too

but i cant tell you how much i want you

oh oh oh and this very innovative guy by the name of sanjay put alcohol in milk and it turned out to be a dimension transporter really really reallyyyyy we all got hooked onto the mixture so we sent him out to get more milk.

he has nice hair that curls on his head like a nest. i know this is not the best description and it certainly does no justice to his curls okay fine horrible description! i shall paint him then:

and how much it hurts me

what a cool guy hahhahaha.

just when we were getting the kick of our lives playing some rum-drinking team relay game someone had to complain about our noise level so the guard came.

and. we. ran.

like the whole bunch of us fuzzy woozy drowsy maybe even drunk.

and. we. ran.

and. ran.

and. ran.

and the birthday boy fell into the pool hahahahhahah !!!

hhahahahahhaahh !!!

hahhahahahahhahha !!!

but i'll soon be replaced
okayi anyw we disbanded soon after that as the guard was threatening to call up bri's parents and stuff. we shared cabs back home

then sanjay called us.

sanjay: hey what am i supposed to do with four cartons of milk?

ray: drink lah.

the pain will soon end
isnt it a wonder how i still rmb all the littlest details when my head was throbbing so badly just the night before hahahhaha

forever is a long long time without you, darling
xoxo