i'm faking a smile with the coffee to go.
i just returned from training.
today, i sucked as hell on court, and i re-injured my ankle.
i'm getting tired of being optimistic.
honestly, i'm just lying to myself week after week.
"my performance will get better"
"i'll get my runs back! the drives!"
"well no biggie i'll just have to work harder on my passes"
things like that?
self-delusion. i can't find a better term.
my play is not improving. as a matter of fact it's going so downhill, i feel that i'm just wasting everyone's time and efforts.
i miss how it was on court so much.
to be in control.
time is slipping out of my hands.
NL's in like, a freaking month away.
and i want to play for seven.
well actually i dont just want to play for seven,
i want to play well for seven.
to all of you, especially those who were here today, i dont think you'll ever see this but,
i'm sorry. charis, della, funny, jasmine, mel, salim, qiuying, the twins,
i'm sorry. dont think i even deserve to be sharing the same bib with you guys.
i dont know how to tell you, how sorry i really am.
for being so sucky.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
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3 comments:
hi sarah, <3
im sorry if you didnt wanted me to see the post, but i really have to say that you DO NOT suck, and you have nothing to be sorry for. we're all a team. :) speedsevenup!!
im not saying this to sound like your parents, or a junior or anything, but as a teammate and a friend, your health matters more than anything else.
yes time is slipping out..
there's no time to dwell on mistakes, all there is.. is to learn from them and move on. :) but please, your health still matters first!!
im not very good with words, or consulting people :/ but i know that you'll find back that spirit again. and you'll be back better than ever. <3
we have faith in you sarah goh! :)
i know you're strong enough to pick yourself up,
just like the stories about pets you told me :)
for the..white furry er.. terriers and maltease!!
(yes im bad at consulting people i know.)
but STAY STRONG, CHEER UP! <3
EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY IN THE END,
IF ITS NOT OKAY,
ITS NOT THE END!
to jasmine:
wow.
wow.
wow.
wow.
wow.
what more can i say?
haha thanks so much, really.
and the "everything will be fine in the end" is my line! :)
i think i'll be able to pick myself up. i think.
thanks again <3
and how come you privated your blog?
to jasmine, again:
forgot to tell you -
you're awesome.
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