but i can't spell it out for you

you know its never gonna be that simple.

and right here right now i'm coming clean with you because i want this to be transparent.

my heart is opening up to you a little more each day.

i'm beginning to feel more in place, having your heart to myself.

less of resistance, more of acceptance.

you make life beautiful again.

now you make me want to be a better person, you make me want to let go of the past and move on because i know that we will create wonderful, unforgettable memories in the future.

somehow i yearn to see your smile, and tonight i pray that you are safe, though far away.

finally, i finally feel this way.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D :D :D

i'm sorry i cant spend it with you. as a matter of fact it isnt even my fault since you chose to fly off tdy hahah. whtvr it is i know you will manage to read this, so i just wanted to let yknow that i didnt forget! and i got you a little something.
cant wait for you to come back! :D
too bad you'll miss chunk fest!
all things will be bright and beautiful the next time i see you, that i promise.

with love,
happy kid.

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i realise that i have a lot to thank god for. i've been bountifully blessed.
thr are so many things, too many for me to list.

heee i'm waiting for my chocolate chip cookie dough ben&jerrys to solidify.
its currently in the freezer.
sknaht tm :)

RVNB?
i dont know.

xoxo