3 Doors Down- Here Without You

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me



Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....



FM Static - Tonight

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me
about when you were eight
And all those things you said
that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat an told me
about your Jesus
and how not to look back
even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"



The Last Goodnight - Incomplete

Can I have your attention please
If you didn't want the garden why did you plant the seed?
Your making promises that you never keep
Now you deal with the consequences down on your knees

And maybe we will do this for the rest of our lives
Maybe we will live forever
And maybe we don't have to think it's right
And maybe we will

I don't feel what you feel
I don't want to feel this incomplete
No one here can tell me
How to fill this space between
Everyone knows you're my one regret
Everyone knows you're my one weakness

The butterfly, the butterfly is beautiful but soon will die
Will spread its wings in the eternal sky
Eternal light with everything that's on its mind
You'll never believe this

And maybe we will do this for the rest of our lives
Maybe we will live forever
And maybe we don't have to think it's right
And maybe we will

I don't feel what you feel
I don't want to feel this incomplete
No one here can tell me
How to fill this space between
Everyone knows you're my one regret
Everyone knows you're my one weakness

The butterfly, the butterfly is beautiful but soon will die
Will spread its wings in the eternal sky
Eternal light with everything that's on its mind
You'll never believe this
And I can see you now reaching out for me
And I can feel you now setting yourself free

I don't feel what you feel
I don't want to feel this incomplete
No one here can tell me
How to fill this space between
Everyone knows you're my one regret
Everyone knows you're my one weakness

And maybe we will do this for the rest of our lives
Maybe we will live forever
And maybe we don't have to think it's right
And maybe we will

The butterfly, the butterfly is beautiful but soon will die
Will spread its wings in the eternal sky
Eternal light with everything that's on its mind
You'll never believe this

______________________________


dont know what to say abt today.
spent the whole morning devicing a plan,
but didnt get to put it to use in the end.
okay maybe i had a chance but i didnt dare to do it.
gahhhhhhhhhhh.
talked to fish, anyw.

all the things i wanted to tell you.
all those little stuff i thought you might listen to.
but all i feel now is a strong force that isnt the pulling,
but the repelling.
fish is right.
i played with fire and i got burnt.
its hurting and i'm trying to undo it.
can you see that i am doing all sorts
and resorting to different means
to try to get you talking to me again?
however much i do
i dont think you even feel anyth anymore.
it takes two hands to clap,
and it takes two parties to make someth workout.
a friendship, a relationship, whatever.
you dont know,
but i really trusted you.
and i told you things i wouldnt have told anyone else.
i felt comfortable and secure with you.
tears could come down naturally when you're here,
though i'd always hold them back.
i felt a sense of in a way, belonging.
a connection perhaps?
whatever that word is.
i just felt that i had someone to care for,
and that person cared for me too.
i mean it.
then i guess i thought too much at a certain point of time,
and i decided to do someth i now regret, a lot.
now it feels weird, cos i know you'd rather talk to
blah bloh bleh and hee hor har.
you'd rather laugh it all out with anyone else but me.
and you know how that feels?
it feels wickedly heartbreaking.
the bond will either become stronger, or it will gradually fade away.
and it'll be total dumbness and simply gah-ed,
if everyth breaks apart - just like that.
i'm saying it out now,
that i dont want it to fade away.
i want to confide in you
and show you my darkest skeletons and
all the stuff i've been hiding in the closet.
i want to be able to tell you all personally, face-to-face,
all that i have written in that letter.
i want to let you know how i feel
and i want to know how you feel, too.
i hope that the person i can lean on,
can hold on to, can laugh with,
can cry with, can whatever and anyth with,
is you.
cos you gave me that very strong feeling,
like i could stand up again, when i was at my lowest.
i mean it, really.
sometimes i wish you looked at me the same,
like how i looked at you.
the trust, the faith, the love, and all that.
if you would just tell me why you'd cry,
tell me if you were sad, or happy,
or share with me abt your day because you felt like telling me.
sometimes i really wish that you'd treat me as a friend.
a good friend.
and not just an ____________,
or a ____-__ ____ when _______ or anyone else was not there.
dont know if i appeared cold,
or if i appeared to be ignoring your pressence,
to you.
but that was exactly what i intended to do the past few days.
if you felt it, i'm sorry.
frankly, selfishly, i hope it bothered you.
but it apparently didnt.
tried, tested, and proven.
dao-ing/being cold/ignoring does nothing
but harm to one's friendship/relationship.
i want to go back to where we were,
one week ago (or around that time).
or, for that matter, anytime!
i just dont want to feel this way.
like you and i so distant.
dont know if you feel it, but i feel it.
so incomplete.
anyw, you know,
i was worried when you ________ ____ _____.
i was worried when you _____ and i didnt know why.
really.
and when i said i miss you,
i mean it.
hurts that you didnt feel the same.
what i feel like doing now,
is going on a cable car with you.
which is 101% impossible given the dire state we're in,
and all the other conditions.
if you ever come across this post,
(i'm actually hoping you would, dont ask why)
its for you - sereno.
(and just to let you know, i didnt spend your money on drinking in the end.)

i'm going to continue trying.
and if things dont work out,
gah. i know that i tried anyw.

we have joy, we have fun,
we have SEASON in the sun.
in eight days.
i really want c'div to go far.
this is ours, people.
it is.

talking to mattie has been fun.
just that he constantly makes fun of me.
i dont get disturbed, anyw.
so he has been self delusioning all the while.
cos i am not the least affected.
hahaha.

swimming's tmr.
cant wait anymore,
diet has to start today.
right now.

and you should go to asylum.
oh wait, i should be the one.
you are driving me crazy.
the main reason why i'm staying out is cos you are here.
if anyone should leave, its you.
like what you said, its my house aint it?
you're such a hypocrite,
i'm disgusted.
i dont want to try to be a good grandniece anymore.
i think i tried real hard,
but now that i think of it.
you dont deserve it.
i'll give you that basic respect - but thats that.

what a long post.
and i still needa complete my holiday homework.
gahhhhhhhhhh.

do you know how it feels like,
loving someone, who's in a rush to throw you away?
do you know how it feels like,
to be the last one, to know the lock to the door has changed?
you dont - i do.

emo?

ciao.