Monday, December 31, 2007






















i feel lost.
i sit alone in the pile of memories.

suddenly everything comes back to me.
i take off my earphones, and i hear the world outside.
"sometimes its letting go that makes one strong.
but its holding on that makes one stronger.
you stop learning the moment you give up.
stop limiting yourself."
now what?
lord please show me what to do,

tell me what to say.
cos we've come too far to let it slipaway.
and i love you, jamsters.

i decided to post someth other than lyrics (or you can call it crap).
anyw, 2007's coming to an end.
like in an hour and fifty two mins time.
whatever it is, this year has been A-M-A-Z-ING.
despite all the down times.
really.
just that now, well.
i'm hella confused.
and very lost.
just dont know what to do.
but i feel much better alr.
i was depressed a week ago.
now i'm just feeling empty (wait is that worst than depressed?).
a lot of things are happening all at once.
and my heart is moving faster than my mind can take.
hold on? let go? give up?
and hey quit guessing that its BGR.
cos its not.

and its not that i dont want to tell you guys yeah.
i just dont know how.
and maybe i dont want to bombard you people
with my hundred and one doubts and questions and probs.

tired. tired. tired.

and i feel like i've lost myself again.
was told that the real me is still in my heart.
but i feel as if my heart's dying and burning up alr.
lost, completely?
i want me back.

thank you for everything.
i dont know what more to say.
but i miss you lei.

ciao.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

everyone has a little something deep inside,
a dark betrayal or the biggest lies
but i'm willing to give you my everything
and i am naked in your eyes

i stand before you, lord on high
will you let me see whats beyond that sky
the love that i cant even imagine
the love that is more than just a feeling
i stand before you, lord on high

take me by the hand
lift me on your shoulders
lead me through the storm
crush away the boulders
i give you my all
i give you my all
trust in you that i wont fall
i give you my all

Monday, December 24, 2007

been looking out somewhere beyond
didnt realise that all along
all the answers i've been looking for
lies in one star











heyheyhey -
filled with emotions but i cant find the right words to put everyth in place.

Saturday, December 22, 2007

misery is the darker side

misery, the dark side of me
has taken over like ectasy
thinking is like drugs and music
i think i'm addicted to it
and this is barely amusing
this is more than confusing






i'll complete this soon enough.
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh D:

Wednesday, December 12, 2007



















dang it

never had a heart this broken
havent felt so empty in a long time
so many words left unspoken
but i have had enough of giving in

cant let you plainly rule my life
quit sitting on me i cant bear the load
hatred collected by and by
is driving me crazy, i'm on the road

if i ever know how
hating someone feels like
it'll be you who
let me learn it the hard way
if there's ever a time
i cant take this no more
dang it, know what
huh, it might just be today
you know what i'm gonna do
because i mean what i say
and i'm gonna make you pay

your smile is so fake it blinds me
and it kills me inside just to know that
we are after all family
i'll rather have nothing to do with you

i collect the notes you wrote here
and now i am reading them one by one
for love that mattered once so dear
i'd like to burn them all, under the sun

if i ever know how
hating someone feels like
it'll be you who
let me learn it the hard way
if there's ever a time
i cant take this no more
dang it, know what
huh, it might just be today
you know what i'm gonna do
because i mean what i say
and i'm gonna make you pay






dang you - this lyric is for you.

Thursday, November 8, 2007

reserved for you


















reserved for you

should i smile knowing we're friends
or should i cry cos that's all we'll ever be
however whatever much i do
you'll never be in love with me

this feeling of emptiness
i woke up with today
i have been feeling it so much
since you went away

patiently i wait by the phone
crossing my fingers that
i'll hear that silly song ringtone
which like my heart

i have reserved for you

should i smile knowing we're friends
or should i cry cos that's all we'll ever be
however whatever much i do
you'll never be in love with me

we did a million billion things
pure friends would never do
and there's this space on my pillow
which like my heart

i have reserved for you

should i smile knowing we're friends
or should i cry cos that's all we'll ever be
however whatever much i do
you'll never be in love with me







still stuck on the prev melody so this one will take a while.
less emo ones coming up lur.
:) anon.

Saturday, November 3, 2007

one has gotta go

















one has gotta go

one girl two boys
one heart two loves
one cup two straws
i'm stuck in between

sitting on fences
not making stances
not taking chances
not saying anything

it was a grave mistake
right from the very start
there should be only room
for one in this heart
why did i open up
how did you let me go
this triangle is what
this love has to show

one girl two boys
one heart two loves
one cup two straws
i'm stuck in between

sitting on fences
not making stances
not taking chances
not saying anything

i cant undo the past
cant take away the feelings
should have had only room'
for one in my heart
should not have opened up
you shouldnt have let me go
complicated mess is
whats left to show

one girl one boy
one heart one love
one cup one straw
one has gotta go










- melody up another time.
promise :)