we watch the season pull up its own stakes, and catch the last weekend of the last week

*update:
i cant crack my knuckles (at least, not on my own) but i have been involunteerily cracking my jaw (and its really loud) ??
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above is the start of dashboard confessional's stolen. okay i know this is like a how-many months-ago song but well, i'm only starting to really like it now.

anyw i penned down my inspiration (again) today and got this:
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when i stay away

i'm not looking but your picture's in my head
i'm not speaking but those words are on my mind
i'm not crying but i'm breaking to pieces inside
i am seeing but my world's in darkness, i am blind

when i stay away you are okay
but i'm not, i'm not
i try to disappear day by day
but i'm not, i'm not

*i watched the seasons change
felt the teardrops fall
how i wish that you
hadn't left at all
tried to pull you back
to my side
but you're pushing like never before
i cant break through this wall

i am looking but you're not meeting my gaze
i am speaking but you're not listening
i am crying but you dont know that i do
i'm not seeing yet i see you, i see you smiling

when you stay away i'm not okay
but you are, you are
you try to disappear day by day ---
(but do you think you are)

*[insert fall/chorus]

[bridge]
you run ten miles
build a hideout
nothing changes it all still remains the same
the yearning for the drug
you've already made your mark
even if i toast ten bottles of sorrow
it will only die this way
is there a tomorrow

*[insert fall/chorus]
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well, this is gonna be worth like, so many so many smiles - we beat nanyang (its getting hot in here)! steady legs dont fail me now. they didnt. or maybe, it was all in the mind and if i really wanted to i could last. i dont want to limp on court. steady legs dont fail me now.
what mp did/said, and what i told her in return. rvnb hot hot, (sorry i'm just gonna borrow this one line) all it takes is all we've got.
but then again a lot of things could have been better. like my passes [especially those to nicole (horrible terrible vegetable placement)]. and this and that and oh my gosh i think i've got a test tmr but i havent studied for it do you think i will study for it haha i might if i feel like doing so but i am not exactly in the mood for revision so i shall not dang this i kinda get a kick from typing without full stops what an ass i know but this is exciting you should try it everyone should and lets just exterminate that little irritating dot manzxc oops did i use the verb appropriately who cares anyw oh and i seriously dont know if i will do well for my personal reccount test i hope i do haha okay this is it bye bye sunflower anonymous where are you who are you why are you i want you to talk to me cos i am happy today i am waiting for the next sunflower just tell me who you are one last bye bye bye bye

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(for your info those dots up there are to make up for the fullstops i did not insert in the previous paragraph.)

i could fly across the world and see everything but never be satisfied if i couldnt see those eyes,
ciao.