today- good day because i did some stuff that made me feel super accomplished.
i finally did someth for cdiv today!
we are hot, loves.
just that my right hand still aches from all that writing.
plus we got our jerseys.
the red (okay more like pink) is not striking enough!
and the top's armhole is soooo biggg cann totallyyy seeee.
okay, then fish and i trained/helped kristal!
and it was really fun.
although it was just the three (or four plus lois) of us,
could feel the love/bond/passion/spirit.
dont know how you call it - some warm tingy feeling.
love love love.
just felt really all-smile today.

today - bad (jk) day because trik is such a poop.
p-double-o-p-poop.
that stinky fella made me wake her up,
then yes i waited for her like an idiot.
i was like, standing outside the school's side gate,
from like 6.40AM till like, 7.00AM.
i crossed over to fetch her anyw, cos i looked so doofus
standing there crossing my arms,
checking my phone and waving and smiling to random people.
see stars my foot luh - see satellite more like it?

today - horrible day cos mk confirmed our worst fears.
she told ___ and i, then, yeah.
i think they'll all know tmr.
i dont know how _______ will take it.
i mean, after everyth and so much effort put in.
she deserves it, more than anyone else.
more than ______. really.
its tmr and i cant do anyth abt it.
all i can do is to stay strong, cos i want to be there for her.
mk said that i should control my ________ all the more as a _______.
and _______ her after everyth, talk to her calmly and all that.
but i'm human too.
and i've got feelings.
i just want to be able to do someth to help.
tmr D:
just like that, how can it be.

no matter what, look on to the brighter side.
and i think i'm going back to LWS sch of music tmr.
i wish we were still talking. i'll tell you abt _______, jamsters, recording, my prom, and this very impt thing. i just hope that what kristal said just now was true.
ciao.