lol, blogging has somewhat become my way of reflecting on my day.

today's been a fairly good day cos i didnt really have anyth to brood over.

today's a horribly bad day (mainly) cos i felt sick throughout.
gah and i skipped the run - which means i have to put in another one someday. i felt guilty watching all the others like sweat so much and pant so much.

ahhhhhh, why must things turn out like this?
i somehow feel as though everyone has come to terms with the fact and i am the only one left behind.
but why? i dont like it.
if this is part (and parcel) of growing up, i'd rather not grow up.
i'll rather be taken care of forever, shielded from the harsh reality of how mean this world can be.
why cant things go my way? it wont hurt.
i want to see people working hard and fulfilling their dreams,
not trying in vain and, just walking away with their hearts shattered.
seriously, tell me why?
if everyone cared, nobody cried
if everyone loved, nobody lied
if everyone shared, and swallowed their pride,
there will be the day where nobody died.
maybe i think too much -

i feel like ________ but i know i cant/wont be allowed to.
anyw i think i'll literally die if i _____ any more now.
sorry, i didnt tell you - but it didnt/wouldnt hurt.

i think ms tan secretly adores tomtom.
ms chew too.

looking for an answer abt such things just leaves my mind in a whirl. messy.

gah, love from tom tom.

i really really want.
to sit overhead in a cable car and feel so close to the sky. try to make out what the clouds are trying to tell me - they all paint a picture. rid of my fear of heights, enjoy that feeling of being suspended. look down and see everyth below in a way i have never seen before. breathe and feel alive. and just sing out loud - even if the lyrics do not make sense in that part of the day.
ciao.