"you had me at hello."

lines like these deserve to last forever.
...but if i could i would have hello-ed my way through the night :)

surprise, surprise! i've just gotten home like half an hour ago!
yes you read it right. well it all started from ytd at about nine in the evening.

my retarded-ness made a decision on impulse to go to the farm site whr PP youth camp was being held. so i tagged along.
my dad fetched me and by eleven i was explaining (or at least, trying to, since i didnt really have an explanation) to everyone who had OMG SARAH WHAT YOU DOING HERE-ed.

i was supposed to be picked up at 12.30am. but the gate was locked so i couldnt get out!
dont tell me about climbing over fences cos that is what silly boys do.
i ended up sleeping in bernice's group's room cos thr was a spare bed.

anyw i'm going back to camp after the match against st. hilda's (geok's girls) :D
speaking of match, ... can i not cut my nails? can i can i can i? they're very pretty now!
and i cant watch sanjay get inked cos he changed his appointment with his tattooist and it clashes with match :(

i'll be in 3L next year and it seems to be a very happening class!
i wonder if it'll be anything like 2B. i miss us us us us us us us :(
it so happens that they allocated us by our sciences so trik's in the same class as i am.
ytd we were talking abt it and holy, it would be very funny to have her call me and say things like "sarah what must we bring tmr." or "eh what homework is thr?"
like, can you imagine?! hahaha
i set to make things right next year :)

i have been doing the most random things (with the most random people) ever. things i will not speak a word of.
it's weird. but it's my life, and i'm loving it, even when everything seems to crop up as untimely as it can get :)
DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D
lastly, averil soh i would really like to be a sansan! :D :D

yay back to sleep!

the butterfly, the butterfly is beautiful but soon will die

will spread its wings in the eternal sky.

i'll be leaving for melbourne in a matter of hours but i'm down with sore throat and flu :(
and that's really bad because if i suffer thr, i'll be in no mood to shop or whatsoever so all of you will get hideous unfashionable nonsensical yucky shitty annoying christmas presents! that wouldn't be very nice, would it?
but hahah, free will. so its your choice as to whether you're gonna pray for me or not :)

that's about all i wanted to say.

OH ONE LAST THING.

MERRY CHRISTMAS IN ADVANCE!
HAVE A JOLLY CELEBRATION HOPE YOU ALL GET MANY MANY PRESENTS!
:D :D :D

"Kryptonite doesn't bother me, either."

- Edward Cullen, Twilight

i am supposed to be in church right now, instead of blogging at home on my bed. i'll get down to explaining this later.

for now i'm just gonna have to exclaim that ...
YESTERDAY'S DATE WITH JOAN WAS MIGHTY MORPHINE AWESOME! :D :D :D
12nn to 12am, dont think my saturday could have been spent any better!

we caught twilight at plaza, and we both think that it was okay what! the critics were too harsh with that 1.5/5 rating! okay maybe it'd have been a bit nonsensical and lame for those who didnt read twilight (and if you are one of them, boy you've missed out on so much goodness) but i mean, like, robert pattinson is so fking hot in that exotic way! and joan thinks carlisle (i forgot the actor's name) is the cutest guy on screen.
the only drawback's that half the time the two main leads were staring at each other in a very weird hostile and wary manner.
but still :)

after that was thrift-shopping at plaza and wisma!
for fifteen dollars she got a pair of flats (cotton on)
i bought gladiators which i will prolly modify cos they're now so common (cotton on), a chain necklace (F21), a dress from i dont know whr. for just fifty one dollars.
such steaaaals! :D

at abt 6.30pm we met up with her family and jeremy (not the tng one) and we went for steamboat dinner. which reminds me, i've ate two consecutive dinners with my friend's families! the day before ytd, i had peranakan dishes with kristal's.
okayi so after that was bowling till late :)

JOANMAKKAI-LIN IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I LIKE GOING OUT WITH YOU!
i hate your 5 blue marble story, though. and i bet V agrees

oh anyw, i'm not in church tdy cos both my brothers are sick! please self link

more pics from rvnb xmas party :)













and with my bro/ do you do you do you do you know he's quite a camwhore!






my hair is still killing me.

in my place, in my place,

were lines that i couldn't change.

this is bad, really bad.
i dont usually blog like so early when the day is still young and unhappening, but here i am now.
this means that i am fking bored and i cant find booze to help me get by.

i think i sound grumpy, but i also think i have the rights to.

1. at about 4AM this morning paul (you idiot) called my house phone (thank goodness my parents were like momentarily deaf, either that or they were dead tired i suppose) and forced me to meet him at the 7-11 opposite. now usually i dont do things against my will but i make exceptions once in a while if you're rich, hot, or both. or nice. that works too.
   so i went downstairs and things happened and i lost my phone.
   
   
2. yes i lost my phone.
   
   
3. i'm having diarrhoea and it was so bad this morning i couldnt go for weights! so i prolly wouldnt be seeing netballers till 29 dec. so i didnt fulfil the task entrusted to me by yeyun :(
   
   
4. i am flying in four days! and all of a sudden i just want to stay put whr i am now. not in my bed, silly, in singapore.
   
   
5. i dont think i have enough undergarments (matching ones, nonetheless) to last me all 6 days in melbourne. time to head to nike
   
   
6. ...time to head to nike but i have no money
   
   
7. i need booze. i'm serious.
   
   
8. my hair. my hair kills me everyday
   

i cant think of anymore for now, but i think 8 is figuratively high enough alr.

anyw i've been getting funny IMs from offline users! its so weird hello people you btr check i think thr are ghosts behind your coms.

yuanteng ♥ Dead. says:
http://itis.ultracoool.com

audrea says:
http://itis.ultracoool.com

[#29 [b]SHUAN[/b](:] >>>> [[c=12]CLASS CHALET!!:) [/c]] says:
http://itis.ultracoool.com

Bigger and better, ULPS! says:
http://itis.ultracoool.com

see so many.

okay i need the toilet alr. someone come save my day!

RVNB x'mas party update

foreword: pictures are spammed. literally.


















































































































































































































































































































































































my captions are nowhere as brilliant as ms loo's so i didnt attempt to make comments.
yes i know my hair looks like a freaking helmet tyvm
i love my boxers btw!

GO RVNB :)

and no words can explain true enough how i feel towards you

not because i dont know,

but because even if i never see you again, i'd never let you slip away from my memories.

because although you keep your distance, i'm holding onto you from afar.

because i live remembering you, and your existence alone can pull me through the worst tides.

just so you know.

have a blessed trip :)

so i finally saw the netballers ytd during the xmas party :)

thank goodness i wasnt so horribly laughed at till my self esteem took a big dip, but yeh still hate my bangs anyw. will update abt it (and spam pictures at the same time) soon! i hope.

prior to that, met up with TM for a short short while. saw MK at JP and yes i said hi (rather reluctantly cos i only did so due to peer pressure) despite my !@#$%^&* hideous hair i thought the most styleeeee teacher in RV would never have to see (and shudder at its horrendous sight).

then went to bugis junction whr i met the muscle pig (and trik too, for twenty mins) who was nice enough to buy me a cap slash hat even though he wasn't obliged to. tyvm i like it a lot :D

your baby mickey too it squeaks hahah so Cute!

quite responsible slash nice of him to actually want to be accountable for something (aka my hair) when he's not entirely at fault.

after like eight days (yknow it pretty much seemed like forever) i played on court again. against SJC.
netball.
seemed so foreign.
like, like, like i've lost it.
almost as if i had forgotten how to play entirely.
totally underperformed.
i hate it when i dont feel as if i'm in control of my own play.
how ar

anyw, i didnt bring my phone out with me this morning cos yeyun and i were in a rush!
i felt so uneasy the whole time!
it feels really x 10000 weird to not have your phone ring (or in my case, vibrate), to not have text messages to reply to, to not have to check for missed calls and all that.
i found myself subconsciously searching in my bag for that bulky samsung gadget, only to be suddenly hit by realisation that it's at home.
it was as if i was disconnected from the world.
i can't live without my phone. period.

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She sat cross-legged on the grass, fiddling with her shoelace.
"So... if that's the case, what is love to you?" she asked casually as she brushed a strand of hair from her face.
He chuckled so softly it almost went unheard. Then, protectively, he put his hand over hers. Leaning in closer, he whispered in her ear tenderly, "It's the way i feel towards you."

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xoxo

it's better when i don't care about the things you say in the world's worst ways

its btr when you're not here :)

so hello :D

my life has been quite happening! believe it or not.
yes i've been kicked out of bdiv but whtvr. its really not that i'm nonchalant about this but well, i'm through with being sad slash emo. so happy kid = happy kid and nothing will change this fact tyvm.
hahaha anyw jiayou rvnb i'll still be supportive :)

anyw i've been spending almost all my free time watching the bestest hk dramas ever. they make me laugh, they make me cry, i dont know just which side to buy!















one fine example :)

if you watch it IM me pretty please, if i were the kind who swore i'd swear its worth your worthless time. we can so like, swoon over the never-aging kevin cheng (hello he's "My light is ultraviolet."'s mom'm age) and scream in unison cos mdm ma is like the sexiest police inspector with that aura glow + character.

anyw i've been shopping like high-time! yay i like new things :D :D :D

and my tenderheart bear :D :D :D

recession isnt affecting me directly cos i'm getting a pocket money increment valid from 2 Jan 2009! yay if i like you very much i'll give you a treat :D
oh yes joan told me abt this friend of hers who gets a thousand dollars a month. literal jaw-dropping information isn't it.
if i were her i wouldnt have needed to go all the way back home to get money from my dad before going back to lot1 to get my shirts and shorts.
yes go give cotton on patronage its like wow i got two pairs of shorts and two tees for fifty dollars no more no less!
and topshop had sales.
and levi's too.

had my ear pierced agn tdy! :)
nah i'm not (and will never be) punk but thanks for the invitation hahah

nice things aside, i had my fringe cut and now its frigging straight blunt thick bangs. i'm having self-esteem problems cos of my black chinadoll image so i'm clipping up my hair wherever i go for now.
hate you if your hair's not screwed.
no luh of cos not hahah

and i'm becoming like, like, like. gosh i cant even bear to say the word out.
okayi here goes
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FAT.
yes. daryl you predicted correctly you said someday im gna turn into a pig.
why?! why me?! i know i havent been attending trg but i have been running almost daily! and i gymed with TM tdy (though we ate like a lot before and after the session)!
life isn't always fair.

OH! BUT WITH SKILL, YOU CAN GET THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS :D

yknow i have so so so much more to say but wabiangeh my mom's threatening to plug off the wireless' AC adapter = no internet. so childish i know.

to end this off, i'm looking forward to the two dates with joanmak! :D (who came over to watch wild child online with me on sunday after church)
to JRL on thurs, and twilight on sat! well i sorta heard some really bad comments on the movie but cross my fingers i hope it isnt as lousy as they make it out to be cos i've been anticipating it hell bad.

i've like, forgotten how to blog. its like i'm spamming words and cramming everything in i dont know what to say and what to let off. yes just like how i've forgotten how to write! some not-so-serious narcissism going on here but i used to be very proud of my wonderfully illegible handwriting! now i feel weird with a pen slash pencil in my hand and my alphabets are all prim and propper and so awfully eye-friendly! what to do! :(

i'm so bored now i wish i was at attica with louise and friends! but im so totally not heading out thr with my hair the way it is now

MY MOM'S GNA TURN OFF THE WIRELESS HELL NO K BYE

looking for perfect, surrounded by artificial

you're the closest to real i've seen.

i'm blogging from daddy's phone so i've gotta make this real quick.

i've started watching The Most Beautiful Seventh Day slash 最美麗的第七天! its such a sweeeeet movie love it love it love it.
and kevin cheng is the boyf.














anyw i was out with kristal (and tseyin, for a while) since 1pm till about 7pm+.
went to lot 1 raffles city marina square suntec but i still havent found anyth for my gift exchange person (rvnb)!
spent a lot on food. typical fern shen kinda behaviour luh hahah



















































































anyw i'm now at my dad's friend's daughter's party and i dont rly know anyone here.
thr isnt much to do either, so we're going off in a while.

till then, xoxo

she turns heads like its the right thing to do

but they don't know that's the only thing she is capable of doing.

so last night was a blast. really.
i was right at home, as a matter of fact in my bed, but it was still fking awesome!
okayi i'll spill it all out in a jiffy before your imagination deviates from the right path.

i was in dangerously low spirits at first, like i was crying river mississippi. but that's not the point.

i slept at like 2.30 in the morning. then at 3.45AM singapore time i got a call all the way from UK and you guessed it right it was momocleotineo! that woman who chose her boyf over her bestf (and should be hanged for such an unpardonable offence).
yes i'm still mad at you dont you dare think you'll get away with it just like that

we talked for barely thirty seconds and i went online shortly after.

I LOVE MY WEBCAM
we had a video call all the way till 6AM.
oh and things got a little kinky. cos my boldness increases with my magnitude of happiness. we had exciting, orgasmic cybersex
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no of cos not, what in the world were you thinking!

then i pretended to slp for 10mins before getting awoken by my dad, who didnt find anyth amiss although situations in which i get up right after being whacked hard on the thighs are as rare as silver bananas.

hahaha i'm not the least tired right now, though.

8AM service's sermon spoke heaps to me.
i shall share a little something:

Financial crisis.

Terrorist attacks and the lost of lives.

Relationship problems and conflicts.

Stress.

When all these mentioned befall on us, do we ask ourselves if God is really thr? Does our faith in Him waiver?

We have to understand that God allows such trials and tribulations into our lives because he wants to make us all stronger and better Christians who turn to him in times of need.
He wants us to know that he is thr to guide us and to lead us out of the darkest tunnels, and that men cannot work alone.

Do you realise that it's so easy to trust in Him when everything is smooth-sailing and when life is like a bed of roses?
We enjoy the blessings he bestow on us, sometimes we even take it for granted.
But when trouble strikes and the storm brews, it takes so so much to place our trust in God.

Why?

Remember the story of Job. His life was going downhill downhill downhill and downhill even though he was a righteous man who found favour in the Lord's eyes.
He lost his monetary assets, his family, his wife, his friends, and his health too was failing him.
These were all Satan's work.
But never did Job once complain or groan, or curse the Lord for letting all these bad things happen in his life.
He accepted both the good and the bad, he endured.
Because he had faith in the Lord, because he trusted him.
Never did he curse the Lord.
Neither did he question.

If we look behind the scenes, we read that Satan had asked God for permission to make Job miserable. God agreed, on the one condition that Satan must not touch nor harm Job's body.

When Satan turned Job's world upside down, Job still loved the Lord like he did before.

So Satan asked God for permission to harm his body, too.
God agreed, but he said that Satan must not take Job's life.

So Job was tormented and tested. But his faith was still strong as ever.

So from this we learn that God will never allow Satan to make you suffer more than you can take.
Never.
We'll just have to tackle our everyday problems with the right attitude.
We'll just have to believe. Trust. Love.
Because at the end of it all we emerge Champions, good, better and best.

If Job can do it, so can we.

To all those who are on the verge of breaking down, never give up. For God is good all the time, and all the time, God is good. To us.

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yes i'm really hungry now k bye!

not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver

i'm counting the seconds until you break the silence, so please just break the sentence.

hello! i am still very tired despite having slept through my afternoon!
oh and i reached home only at 11 something this morning

no pictures so fk off if you're not in the mood for words which gnarl at you.
I'M JOKING :D

ytd night was speed's xmas party! a bit early yes. hahaha i got my first two presents alr (one from gift exchange, another from miss lim)!
anyw it started at 7.30pm but i wasnt thr till like, 10plus cos my dad detoured here and thr to buy stuff instead of fetching me straight.
and by then like, more than half the people were gone :(
so i didnt rly get to know who's who (if you get what i mean).
so i went thr for the food and to slp (literally) hahaha

mahjong. TV. sandwiches. watch more mahjong. watch more TV. eat more sandwiches.

by like 4am+ those who stayed over (geok, may, charmaine, charis, della, miss lim like duh hello its her house and oh yay i rmbed their names but did i miss anyone out) all conked out in the living room

when i awoke the next day only della may geok (and miss lim like duh hello its her house again) were left. had a reallyyyyy good breakfast (yes we even had mangoes and rice and curry) though they were mainly ytd's leftovers :)
then we sat around the table and talked for like, an hour plus or maybe even two hours, until the adults had to leave for batam
was very very very funny :D

della and i went home tgt and i learnt so so so much abt speed (seven). abt how it was set-up and everything. plus random facts like charmaine's in u21 (or u19 i cant rmb) and she's charis' sister, may and miss lim are sisters too, miss lim's in sneakers but she's our coach, other netball politics etc

i suddenly feel like playing (netball)

okayi so !@#$%^&*(
sorry tanya! we're still friends right hahaha

my second hole on right ear is closing alr :(
k lets go pierce

oh and we (RVNB) might be playing against geok's girls on the 30dec morning. i messaged ms loo (yes i did hahah yay yeyun's in korea now thank goodness) and she seems keen
uh-oh

neeywayyyy,
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so what am i supposed to do in a situation like this?

i give you my heart on a string

so just stay awake for me, i dont wna miss anything.

like how a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh, same thing goes.

hello toodles, i got a new hammy! he's called plox. or maybe alfie. i cant make up my mind :)
he's real fat but very adorable anyw, welcome to the family :D
got him on impulse but i think raffles doesnt mind another mate

and lixuan's quite cute eh.

work harder says:
woah

work harder says:
NO you don't have to wash my hairdryer

work harder says:
you'll erm spoil it if you wash it

hahaha. anyw acc to hon my hamsters are very hip cos they live in my room and i'm always blasting music

i gotta go find someth to wear for the party/stayover tonight! and oh pack towels and bathing stuff and attire for my match

so goodbye i miss you :)

and all the roads we have to walk along are winding

and all the lights that lead us there are blinding.


credits to angweijie :)

I AM SO VERY AWAKE.
all thanks to the cold (slash freezing) bath i survived.

concurrently i believe that you will always have a place in my heart.
but for now, i'm done with missing you and looking at you from afar (or up-close at times).
so long, farewell, goodbye.
though it was good while it lasted, i've tasted enough of that bittersweet and i have officially relinquished every single bit of you i had been holding on to for the past one month :)

things were very much different when i woke up tdy because i alr had four date-invite smses :D
by the time i read them i was only in time for yeyun's so at about 1pm i popped by to BPP whr we bought some snacks/drinks and ran her errand before going over to her house.
we watched about two episodes of MDWAV (1st of the trilogy) and yes yes yes my all-time favourite hongkong drama is still as addictive!
thr are no kevin chengs nor lam fungs but they have the most awesome storyline ever :)

bus-ed down to KNC tgt, then played against santa fe.
they're all quite big.
but we won anyw (58 - 8 if i'm not wrong) :D

sorry speed didnt support you guys throughout the whole match! i was too damn hungry hahah
hope you guys played well :)
and yay yay yay yay i think i can go for the xmas party tmr, cos some of them are staying overnight so it wouldnt be too late to rush thr right after JJC's match tmr!
but i have yet to get anything for the gift exchange uh-oh

p.s. tyvm muscle pig for being thr to calm me down when i was utterly lost and flustered and everything because of my wallet incident :) take care of your ankle you wouldn wna miss chunkfest hee :D
p.p.s it's just eight more days! hon we can make it through :)
but just to let yknow, i rly miss you. alr.

xoxo

but i can't spell it out for you

you know its never gonna be that simple.

and right here right now i'm coming clean with you because i want this to be transparent.

my heart is opening up to you a little more each day.

i'm beginning to feel more in place, having your heart to myself.

less of resistance, more of acceptance.

you make life beautiful again.

now you make me want to be a better person, you make me want to let go of the past and move on because i know that we will create wonderful, unforgettable memories in the future.

somehow i yearn to see your smile, and tonight i pray that you are safe, though far away.

finally, i finally feel this way.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D :D :D

i'm sorry i cant spend it with you. as a matter of fact it isnt even my fault since you chose to fly off tdy hahah. whtvr it is i know you will manage to read this, so i just wanted to let yknow that i didnt forget! and i got you a little something.
cant wait for you to come back! :D
too bad you'll miss chunk fest!
all things will be bright and beautiful the next time i see you, that i promise.

with love,
happy kid.

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i realise that i have a lot to thank god for. i've been bountifully blessed.
thr are so many things, too many for me to list.

heee i'm waiting for my chocolate chip cookie dough ben&jerrys to solidify.
its currently in the freezer.
sknaht tm :)

RVNB?
i dont know.

xoxo

and when it rains on this side of town it touches everything

just say it again and mean it, we dont miss a thing.

tyvm yeyun, for the revelation: thr's actually a chippy's outlet at lot1!
so after having dinner with netballers at KFC (match was postponed TO FRIDAY, OF ALL DAYS cos of the rain), she and i went to CCK and boy, i finally got to eat fried mars bars with icecreammmm :D :D :D

succint.

you are my sunshine :)

the sweetness of this all

just makes me like you even more :)

woke up too late even though i had a very irritating (hahah jk) human alarm in the morning! so i couldnt make it in time for breakfast with some of the netballers at kallang's mac.

watched the match, the fighting spirit towards the end really did show :D
(and we made a video for MC which i will upload pretty soon! fortunate fellas kristal and trik invited her to their class chalet and now they're gna have that once-in-a-lifetime experience of going to escape theme park with her.
damn dont rub it in)
RVNB is awesome.
and that line above is quite an understatement if i say so myself

... because lunch was hahaha fabulous (that is my simple request, all things fabulous, bigger and better and best)!
we laughed so so so much.
we talked about almost everything, from enonomics to warfare to political issues (like how b*sh is really the shortform of bullshit) to singapore vs malaysia then lixuan will run back to the latter country to cheongsams to phobia of dolls to hiding under blankets to USA to china to atomic slash nuclear bombs to .... etc you get my point yes?

anyw at abt 12.50pm my dad picked me up from KFC.
then we went to funan digitalmall whr i bought my laptop sleeve (yes i have a new lappie, a basic one but its good enough for me. hahah bought it at sitec expo fair, you guys shd go get some barang while its still on. cos everyth's like dirt cheap)
and an orange ipod nano.
i used to think that apple products are way overrated, but my mindset's changed as of now.
heee :D

materialistic fulfilments can buy short-term happiness :D

and, hahah i laughed till my jaws ached at this:

"Knock-knock," said the Wolf says:
haha, yeah.

"Knock-knock," said the Wolf says:
just like how you will always be my happy kid.

(happy kid) says:
hahah okayi daddy

fo you get it? no?
oh well hahah doesnt matttterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

L is for the way you look at me