when will my reflection show who i truly am

I CANT SLEEP.

Boyzone - Shooting Star
Oooh
No one seems to think too much of me here
and they're glad to tell it to my face
And they're right I'm not supposed to be here
I'm completely out of place
Somehow there has got to be a reason
Even as I try to think it through
There's a bolt from the blue

And I see a shooting star
(And I see a star)
Set apart from all the rest
While the other stars are standing still (ooh)
He's on a quest
Every night this shooting star
(Every night this star)
Dancing across the twilight sky
Cause he knows he doesn't quite fit in (ooh)
And he's longing to know why, why
(longing to know why)

I feel so much better when it's night time
That's when I can sort of disappear
When the sun is set and it's the right time
For pretending I'm not here
Sometimes I just stare into the heavens
Wondering if the answer is inside
That's when I see the light

Of my sent that shooting star
On his way to who know's where
(On his way to who know's where)
He's so unlike all the stars (ooh)
But he outshines out there
(shines out there)
And the solitary star
(solitary star)
Is an awful lot like me (ooh)
On an endless search in time and space
For a place that won't seem wrong
(place that won't seem wrong)

If we both hang on for long enough
We both somehow are strong enough
We'll find out where we belong

Every night this shooting star
(every night this star)
Dancing across the twilight sky
Cause he knows he doesn't quite fit in (ooh)
And he's longing to know why (why)
Know why (why)
Why (why)
Why (why)
Know why (why) (to fade)

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i'm very very glad i didnt have to go through it all, though i think the last minute fishing trip (minus the seashells picking, minus the counting of stars, minus the camera-play) was almost as bad.
i was hella bored.
thanks a lot manzxc (my infatuated) twinneh haha, dont deny i know you are.

thank god.

i dont want to try to be happy anymore.
i got caught.
i'm losing it as i lose you.
dying.
i cant help feeling this way.
i cant help going insane because i miss you so much.

this is how i feel (empty),